5.29.2004
[mood]: exhausted, a little bit lonely
[music]: time of your life--greenday
[countdown]: ...0
oh. my. word.
well, let's see.
YESTERDAY was amazing. so so so amazing. definitely one of the best days of this year. i tried to hang out with shea, sashca, ross, chris, etc. before 1st but mr. sharpe was positive the bell was about to ring (at 7.20???) and kicked me out (away?) and i went to 1st. so, we played cards in french. which wasn't great but then sally gave me THE PERFECT card ("kissing fish") and made me really happy. i gave sally my anonymous note to mrs. relyea to put on her desk, and we all agree it made her happier all day. then i took my last walk down to homeroom...met with chris half way, walked back up, walked all the way down with scott. little things like that which i'll never do again. =(. so mr. heath was really sweet. (he gave us tips on the best times to skip). and then a huge herd of us went to the cafeteria to begin, in the words of mrs. brooks, our "wasted day". the teachers gave out awards (but not many...none for fps or straight a's all this year or i would have gotten some) and mrs. brooks gave the best speech. at the end i stood up and started the standing ovation...because mrs. brooks is like one of my best friends. i mean, i even told her about it when i was having "issues" with certain "groups". haha and she was all...you know you're better than that. you know you're stronger and you know where you belong. so anyway. sashca & henry rock my world because they kept me laughing and came out in the hall and hugged me...=). we took tons of pictures and then we went down to the fields. i raced a bunch of people a lot, but because ryan is on steriods, he beat me. hahahaha. we just laid down in the grass...and i was thinking to myself, as shea put it later, "these are the moments i thank God that i'm alive"...more pictures, etc. then the picnic. i walked around and saw everyone, which was nice. no loose ends there! then the picnic? it was ok. they didn't have time of your life to play, darnit! but eventually, i cried. i cried so hard that they were silent sobs and gasps, i couldn't formulate words to say how big of a piece of me this was taking out of my life. then in 8th period we rounded up people: sally, shea, chris, zach, kevin, meredith...maybe some more, i don't remember...and went around to say goodbye to the school. (they tried to stop us like 10 times but i had the magical pass...THE LAST ONE I SIGNED LEGALLY FOR MYSELF...*sob*) first, we went to the 6th grade hall and said goodbye to all of our lockers and remembered all these things that happened in certain places...and then we wandered down to the 7th grade hall. same thing...and we knocked on mr. wilson's door and said goodbye to him! then we wandered down by the construction and went to say bye to the gym...haha that's when the water fountain wouldn't cut off and i laughed so suddenly water came out of my nose...*shakes head* only shea...hahaha. and then mrs. cochran came over the PA and was like "all students need to be in their 8th period classes..." and we all looked at each other, all the coaches looked as us, and we ran out the back door of the basement!!! hahah that was soo funny. then we wandered back...and took a big picture of the 8th grade fps people with mrs. brooks...and then...the bell rang. and we just...had to go. walked out to carpool and will runs up and goes "charlotte i need a ride!!!" so he was attached to our little group. chris, shea, scott, & will rode home with me and we hung out playing with the dogs (they were sooo friendly...a bit too friendly?) and on the computer and stuff...then when sally got here we watched ferris beuller's day off. even though we've all seen it a million times. so we talked through a lot of it. (or...tickled each other through a lot of it...hmmm). then when adam got there we all walked to lilly's. now, let me tell you, that was THE SHIZNIT. it seems a lot shorter when you have more people because there's always something to do...like bark at dogs with their voice boxes taken out, do the matrix on vertical hills (and, if you're me, slip on wet grass and fall and get sprayed by the sprinkler...>_<) or run across the street playing chicken. when we got there we ordered (wait...do we really need all of that $50 to pay for it?!?!) and i really do think they served us faster because chris was there!!! HAHA wow. dinner was definitely interesting, we watched 2 little girls almost get freakin KILLED (stupid mother) and we had people give us weird looks at the stop light because we were all in a circle holding hands and promising each other we'd do this every year. so we were afraid it would rain so we went inside half way through. then we realized we had to go to make it to the movie on time (it didn't rain) and we walked back home. again, once we got on a side street we all stood in a huddle and did a dedication to friendship and the true meaning of it and love and being together and this year and that day. and then we all piled into cars and went to the movie! the day after tomorrow was more of a message than a movie, but it was SOOO GOOD. (the reviews were definitely right: see it with someone you love =) haha) and yeah at one point i was like in chris's lap and sally was in my lap and will was in sally's lap...because we were all SO SCARED. ("i don't do wolves!") lol but it was definitely fun. there were a ton of ligon [alumni] there. which makes me sad...we're ligon alumni now, too. but yeah: casey hester & ricky rust and a bunch of their friends and then jay one of kate's ex's and mr. pond and...yeah. (plus us, of course) and then after the movie we saw and talked with brazlon for a bit. then we gave adam a ride home. then...we got home and practically went straight to bed we were SOO tired (i slept over at sally's by the way). we stayed up talking for a bit and i wrote in my diary but that's about it. i thought then that i was ok with school ending...that there was nothing left unsaid or undone and i'd said goodbye and i was having a smooth transition into summer. i thought so for a while. until the party today. but that comes later. so then we crashed...
TODAY...i woke up at 9.30 all excited. haha but it took sally another hour to wake up so i wrote MORE in my diary. once she woke up we sorta dragged around for a while then we went to stonehenge market...had lunch at subway (mmm) and then walked home. we talked about summer...what this summer is going to mean, about our future, about the people in our lives, about everything. it was really fun...great way to start summer, again. and then when we got back we sat in the back of her '66 ford pickup eating ice pops and talkin with her brother and neighbor. then we played croquet on a very random whim. i won! yay! now, if i had just stopped there. if i had just packed up and gone home. but no. i had to go to shea's party. and all of a sudden i felt like complete and total SHIT. and now i'm listening to time of your life and i'm going to cry. remember how we kept singing it together all through thursday, yesterday, and today. what it means to us. what it really means. and i did have the time of my life. but i HAD it...i'm not longer having it. no, no, no, crying alone is no fun. crying when no one knows or cares or thinks of you is no fun. continuing on...i just thought about some things and i realized who was the person that people saw in the bad light and it wasn't who i thought it might be...and i felt so stupid...and i felt...so...young again. like...how i used to feel. and now i realize how awful i felt for a while in there and i let absolutely no one know. and now it's all coming back. i feel the same again: pushy and overbearing and stupid and hungry and lonely and far away and helpless...i don't know right now i feel like someone hit me over the head with something so heavy i can't speak correctly anymore and i can't formulate thoughts or anything. i've been thinking and talking and writing for so long i think i may just break. i maybe just stop right here and die. i'm like a wind-up toy, set on the highest setting and i ran into a wall, and i'm just sitting here flailing with my arms and legs kicking and moving and trying to go foward but i can't, i can't, i'm running no where fast. so then...i babysat for 2 hours and got $20 and came home and...yeah. somehow there's going to be no phone tonight. somehow i'm going back to how it all used to be before. somehow everything caught up with this perfection and tore it all apart, crushing it under my own heels. i feel like that john shooter guy in the secret window...i'm killing my own dreams and i'm doing all of this to myself because i know it has to be done eventually, it has to come down eventually and i might as well do it myself.
but, no! it's going to be ok, i guess. this summer will be amazing. but now there are loose ends to tie up. there's misunderstandings and longings and misgivings and lonliness, not being able to go back to school on monday and make up for lost time with these people...god what am i saying what am i doing. it's like i'm always just watching myself...watching some other person live this beautiful and wonderful life with all the pieces fallen into place, and then i wake up and snap out of it and my hand rips apart these pieces and throws them as far from reach as possible, and i sit here alone in this void. or maybe it's the other way around...
maybe i really am schitzophrenic. or bipolar. or something. this isn't healthy, whatever it is.
and so starts my summer. the best day ever...
and tears so sad they can't be cried, because i don't want to admit what they mean.
at least there's one thing that will never change. there is one unwavering constant, whether it is a good thing or a bad thing:
i love you all.
[music]: time of your life--greenday
[countdown]: ...0
oh. my. word.
well, let's see.
YESTERDAY was amazing. so so so amazing. definitely one of the best days of this year. i tried to hang out with shea, sashca, ross, chris, etc. before 1st but mr. sharpe was positive the bell was about to ring (at 7.20???) and kicked me out (away?) and i went to 1st. so, we played cards in french. which wasn't great but then sally gave me THE PERFECT card ("kissing fish") and made me really happy. i gave sally my anonymous note to mrs. relyea to put on her desk, and we all agree it made her happier all day. then i took my last walk down to homeroom...met with chris half way, walked back up, walked all the way down with scott. little things like that which i'll never do again. =(. so mr. heath was really sweet. (he gave us tips on the best times to skip). and then a huge herd of us went to the cafeteria to begin, in the words of mrs. brooks, our "wasted day". the teachers gave out awards (but not many...none for fps or straight a's all this year or i would have gotten some) and mrs. brooks gave the best speech. at the end i stood up and started the standing ovation...because mrs. brooks is like one of my best friends. i mean, i even told her about it when i was having "issues" with certain "groups". haha and she was all...you know you're better than that. you know you're stronger and you know where you belong. so anyway. sashca & henry rock my world because they kept me laughing and came out in the hall and hugged me...=). we took tons of pictures and then we went down to the fields. i raced a bunch of people a lot, but because ryan is on steriods, he beat me. hahahaha. we just laid down in the grass...and i was thinking to myself, as shea put it later, "these are the moments i thank God that i'm alive"...more pictures, etc. then the picnic. i walked around and saw everyone, which was nice. no loose ends there! then the picnic? it was ok. they didn't have time of your life to play, darnit! but eventually, i cried. i cried so hard that they were silent sobs and gasps, i couldn't formulate words to say how big of a piece of me this was taking out of my life. then in 8th period we rounded up people: sally, shea, chris, zach, kevin, meredith...maybe some more, i don't remember...and went around to say goodbye to the school. (they tried to stop us like 10 times but i had the magical pass...THE LAST ONE I SIGNED LEGALLY FOR MYSELF...*sob*) first, we went to the 6th grade hall and said goodbye to all of our lockers and remembered all these things that happened in certain places...and then we wandered down to the 7th grade hall. same thing...and we knocked on mr. wilson's door and said goodbye to him! then we wandered down by the construction and went to say bye to the gym...haha that's when the water fountain wouldn't cut off and i laughed so suddenly water came out of my nose...*shakes head* only shea...hahaha. and then mrs. cochran came over the PA and was like "all students need to be in their 8th period classes..." and we all looked at each other, all the coaches looked as us, and we ran out the back door of the basement!!! hahah that was soo funny. then we wandered back...and took a big picture of the 8th grade fps people with mrs. brooks...and then...the bell rang. and we just...had to go. walked out to carpool and will runs up and goes "charlotte i need a ride!!!" so he was attached to our little group. chris, shea, scott, & will rode home with me and we hung out playing with the dogs (they were sooo friendly...a bit too friendly?) and on the computer and stuff...then when sally got here we watched ferris beuller's day off. even though we've all seen it a million times. so we talked through a lot of it. (or...tickled each other through a lot of it...hmmm). then when adam got there we all walked to lilly's. now, let me tell you, that was THE SHIZNIT. it seems a lot shorter when you have more people because there's always something to do...like bark at dogs with their voice boxes taken out, do the matrix on vertical hills (and, if you're me, slip on wet grass and fall and get sprayed by the sprinkler...>_<) or run across the street playing chicken. when we got there we ordered (wait...do we really need all of that $50 to pay for it?!?!) and i really do think they served us faster because chris was there!!! HAHA wow. dinner was definitely interesting, we watched 2 little girls almost get freakin KILLED (stupid mother) and we had people give us weird looks at the stop light because we were all in a circle holding hands and promising each other we'd do this every year. so we were afraid it would rain so we went inside half way through. then we realized we had to go to make it to the movie on time (it didn't rain) and we walked back home. again, once we got on a side street we all stood in a huddle and did a dedication to friendship and the true meaning of it and love and being together and this year and that day. and then we all piled into cars and went to the movie! the day after tomorrow was more of a message than a movie, but it was SOOO GOOD. (the reviews were definitely right: see it with someone you love =) haha) and yeah at one point i was like in chris's lap and sally was in my lap and will was in sally's lap...because we were all SO SCARED. ("i don't do wolves!") lol but it was definitely fun. there were a ton of ligon [alumni] there. which makes me sad...we're ligon alumni now, too. but yeah: casey hester & ricky rust and a bunch of their friends and then jay one of kate's ex's and mr. pond and...yeah. (plus us, of course) and then after the movie we saw and talked with brazlon for a bit. then we gave adam a ride home. then...we got home and practically went straight to bed we were SOO tired (i slept over at sally's by the way). we stayed up talking for a bit and i wrote in my diary but that's about it. i thought then that i was ok with school ending...that there was nothing left unsaid or undone and i'd said goodbye and i was having a smooth transition into summer. i thought so for a while. until the party today. but that comes later. so then we crashed...
TODAY...i woke up at 9.30 all excited. haha but it took sally another hour to wake up so i wrote MORE in my diary. once she woke up we sorta dragged around for a while then we went to stonehenge market...had lunch at subway (mmm) and then walked home. we talked about summer...what this summer is going to mean, about our future, about the people in our lives, about everything. it was really fun...great way to start summer, again. and then when we got back we sat in the back of her '66 ford pickup eating ice pops and talkin with her brother and neighbor. then we played croquet on a very random whim. i won! yay! now, if i had just stopped there. if i had just packed up and gone home. but no. i had to go to shea's party. and all of a sudden i felt like complete and total SHIT. and now i'm listening to time of your life and i'm going to cry. remember how we kept singing it together all through thursday, yesterday, and today. what it means to us. what it really means. and i did have the time of my life. but i HAD it...i'm not longer having it. no, no, no, crying alone is no fun. crying when no one knows or cares or thinks of you is no fun. continuing on...i just thought about some things and i realized who was the person that people saw in the bad light and it wasn't who i thought it might be...and i felt so stupid...and i felt...so...young again. like...how i used to feel. and now i realize how awful i felt for a while in there and i let absolutely no one know. and now it's all coming back. i feel the same again: pushy and overbearing and stupid and hungry and lonely and far away and helpless...i don't know right now i feel like someone hit me over the head with something so heavy i can't speak correctly anymore and i can't formulate thoughts or anything. i've been thinking and talking and writing for so long i think i may just break. i maybe just stop right here and die. i'm like a wind-up toy, set on the highest setting and i ran into a wall, and i'm just sitting here flailing with my arms and legs kicking and moving and trying to go foward but i can't, i can't, i'm running no where fast. so then...i babysat for 2 hours and got $20 and came home and...yeah. somehow there's going to be no phone tonight. somehow i'm going back to how it all used to be before. somehow everything caught up with this perfection and tore it all apart, crushing it under my own heels. i feel like that john shooter guy in the secret window...i'm killing my own dreams and i'm doing all of this to myself because i know it has to be done eventually, it has to come down eventually and i might as well do it myself.
but, no! it's going to be ok, i guess. this summer will be amazing. but now there are loose ends to tie up. there's misunderstandings and longings and misgivings and lonliness, not being able to go back to school on monday and make up for lost time with these people...god what am i saying what am i doing. it's like i'm always just watching myself...watching some other person live this beautiful and wonderful life with all the pieces fallen into place, and then i wake up and snap out of it and my hand rips apart these pieces and throws them as far from reach as possible, and i sit here alone in this void. or maybe it's the other way around...
maybe i really am schitzophrenic. or bipolar. or something. this isn't healthy, whatever it is.
and so starts my summer. the best day ever...
and tears so sad they can't be cried, because i don't want to admit what they mean.
at least there's one thing that will never change. there is one unwavering constant, whether it is a good thing or a bad thing:
i love you all.
Posted by char at 10:20 PM
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5.27.2004
[mood]: broken hearted
[music]: currently? this love--maroon 5 but the songs of the day: ice ice baby--vanilla ice, and time of your life--green day
[countdown]: 1. day. left.
LIGONFEST!!! oh my goodness. it really was sorta blah because...well i mean it was fine...but yeah. so this morning i wandered around with scott/henry/adam/shea/harrison etc. during what was supposed to be our homeroom. OH YEAH i had to go find my giver book for fines and my bodyguard/escort (shea) and i met up with chris & sally...and we went into the backroom and destroyed the bookcases looking for it...and to try and turn on the lights i pressed the intercom button...and we sat there silently laughing sooo hard when the woman tried to talk back. wow. good times. i didn't find it but sally paid my fines for me =).
then we went to the gym. yeah whatever. pep rally...passed around yearbooks (AGAIN) and that's about it. then we watched kickball and i listened to ian's ipod for a long time (even though i didn't know whose it was) and that was the start of..."it". "it" was very unpleasant. but i think "it"'s going to be resolved now. well anyway we played capture the flag against the loehfelm team and that put me in an even WORSE mood because they are such cheating bitches. grrr. (happy now--i hate someone!) so yeah. then i got a drink, when i quite with sally & shea. mmm. and the booths were OK, after i got out the intial..."it" stuff. (to sally...what a wonderful best friend!!!) and yeah i got soo many of those slushy things. took some pictures. discussed feverently about "it"...and tried to resolve "it" but that didn't really work.
then afterwards we went to mrs. brooks's room for the rest of the day. aww i love mrs. brooks. i sorted out most of my feelings and SCOTT GAVE ME A COOKIE!!! that was definitely cool. and what he wrote in sally's yearbook made me cry [it was so sweet--reguarding me not njhs haha]. so then we watched the talent show...and during time of your life...the kid couldn't sing...so me, sally, shea, and i think a lot of other people in the class started singing along, and we were like a big group hug and i started crying...i wish the end of school wouldn't be so sad! so yeah that was it. the video yearbook S-U-C-K-E-D cause absolutely no one from the kingsberry team was on the production crew, so like...none of us were ever in there. oh well.
so yeah that's it. sally gave me a ride home.
TOMORROW IS GOING TO ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!!!
some song lyrics:
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life.
[Greenday--Time of Your Life]
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those blue-green eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss our silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
let the light back in
I miss my friend
[Darryl Worley--I Miss My Friend]
uhhm there were some more but i forget. time to go clean and write my language arts paper, 782.5883.
[music]: currently? this love--maroon 5 but the songs of the day: ice ice baby--vanilla ice, and time of your life--green day
[countdown]: 1. day. left.
LIGONFEST!!! oh my goodness. it really was sorta blah because...well i mean it was fine...but yeah. so this morning i wandered around with scott/henry/adam/shea/harrison etc. during what was supposed to be our homeroom. OH YEAH i had to go find my giver book for fines and my bodyguard/escort (shea) and i met up with chris & sally...and we went into the backroom and destroyed the bookcases looking for it...and to try and turn on the lights i pressed the intercom button...and we sat there silently laughing sooo hard when the woman tried to talk back. wow. good times. i didn't find it but sally paid my fines for me =).
then we went to the gym. yeah whatever. pep rally...passed around yearbooks (AGAIN) and that's about it. then we watched kickball and i listened to ian's ipod for a long time (even though i didn't know whose it was) and that was the start of..."it". "it" was very unpleasant. but i think "it"'s going to be resolved now. well anyway we played capture the flag against the loehfelm team and that put me in an even WORSE mood because they are such cheating bitches. grrr. (happy now--i hate someone!) so yeah. then i got a drink, when i quite with sally & shea. mmm. and the booths were OK, after i got out the intial..."it" stuff. (to sally...what a wonderful best friend!!!) and yeah i got soo many of those slushy things. took some pictures. discussed feverently about "it"...and tried to resolve "it" but that didn't really work.
then afterwards we went to mrs. brooks's room for the rest of the day. aww i love mrs. brooks. i sorted out most of my feelings and SCOTT GAVE ME A COOKIE!!! that was definitely cool. and what he wrote in sally's yearbook made me cry [it was so sweet--reguarding me not njhs haha]. so then we watched the talent show...and during time of your life...the kid couldn't sing...so me, sally, shea, and i think a lot of other people in the class started singing along, and we were like a big group hug and i started crying...i wish the end of school wouldn't be so sad! so yeah that was it. the video yearbook S-U-C-K-E-D cause absolutely no one from the kingsberry team was on the production crew, so like...none of us were ever in there. oh well.
so yeah that's it. sally gave me a ride home.
TOMORROW IS GOING TO ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!!!
some song lyrics:
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life.
[Greenday--Time of Your Life]
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those blue-green eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss our silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
let the light back in
I miss my friend
[Darryl Worley--I Miss My Friend]
uhhm there were some more but i forget. time to go clean and write my language arts paper, 782.5883.
Posted by char at 4:41 PM
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5.22.2004
[mood]: emotionally full to the brim
[music]: all my life
[countdown]: 5 days left of school
WOW. that was definitely the best dance ever. but yeah on with my entire day:
.1st we studied for the essay. yeeeah.
.homeroom yearbooks! yay!...cept not. they suck ASS. i take NO responsibility for them, and anyway, most of my pages that i did were taken out after i dropped out *cough cough* so i can't really anyway. the only thing they're good for is autographs...lol right now i have chris's & sally's and chris has mine. =p.
.2nd wrote my rough draft thingy for the judge...and talked to people, as always.
.3rd-4th field study! pretty fun, finished counting tallies, etc.
.5th IN CLASS ESSAY! *dun dun dun dun* henry picked it and i was looking over his shoulder and read it before he did...that was DEFINITELY the worst part...but after it had sunk in which question you got it was really easy. (we got "what is the catalyst of reform")
.6th-7th left for manicure & pedicure..mmm. sooo relaxing...they massage your feet and hands and give you like mini bubble baths for your hands & feet and they get so soft and smell so good! haha when i walked into fps sally was like "hey no fair you smell too good!" haha good times. so yeah i got a french manicure/pedicure and it looked perfect with my dress! and didn't even get messed up at soccer! yayness and pie!
.8th i got there with like 15 minutes left or something. signed adam's yearbooks and stephen's too and uhh that'd be it!
so hrrm went home...went to the store to get new conditioner...took a shower, dried my hair, got dressed, kate curled my hair (HAH! like that lasted) and then i was set to go! ok so i was like 30 minutes late to shelly's party, but still! i signed ashley's yearbook and michelle's too there...and had nachos...and took a billion pictures like it was prom or something hahha. and yeah that was it cause then we had to go!
we got there "fashionably late" at like 7.15-7.30 or something, and mrs. brooks was there! aww it was so sweet! never got to say hi to her though...oh well. so hmmm here's an abbreviated list of all the people i talked to/hung out with/saw, basically: sally, shea, chris, michelle, andrea, ashley, anne, alex, adam, scott, betty, avery, julian, sascha, colin, hannah...yea etc. etc. whatever! but it was the greatest feeling, all these people who never come to dances actually went this time! yay! everyone was soo pretty and we all dressed up and i had a best friend around every corner and it was just so much fun. i danced with shea a ton (fast dancing, you know) haha we had a little swing dancing! and yeah we were being sooo silly! and i danced with scott (the slow kind) and shea (the top-slow bottom-fast kind! HAHAHA i love ya buddy!) and yeah. GO SALLY! she got into the dance competition because she was a CLOCK. so creative =). yeah the rest of the slow songs i danced with chris...durrr. ooh my goodness the last one was so sweet! *goes off into heaven* *comes back down to finish blog entry*
so anyway. then sally, chris & i hung out in the gym until chris's dad came and then sally & i went home! and her mom made CRAP for us! (crepes...duh) and they were sooo yummy and just what i needed. THEN we got in our pj's and took a midnight ride in the back of her new ford '66 pickup truck! it's baby blue & white and just THE SHIZNIT! it was soo much fun...lol it was all windy and we rolled around in the back...but the metal was hard on my butt *ouch* haha. and i saw the first official firefly of summer! =D so yeah. came back in watched finding nemo up to crush the turtle, then we were like about to fall asleep (dancing your ass off can do that to ya) so we went to bed. then woke up...
BYE BYE MISS AMERICAN PIE!
i really don't feel like talking about today.
so yeah i'm about to go out to dinner with my mommy! well, at 8.00. jensen's in southport...again...and kate is camping with dad.
i can't believe this is our last week of school. at all. i love you guys too much.
[music]: all my life
[countdown]: 5 days left of school
WOW. that was definitely the best dance ever. but yeah on with my entire day:
.1st we studied for the essay. yeeeah.
.homeroom yearbooks! yay!...cept not. they suck ASS. i take NO responsibility for them, and anyway, most of my pages that i did were taken out after i dropped out *cough cough* so i can't really anyway. the only thing they're good for is autographs...lol right now i have chris's & sally's and chris has mine. =p.
.2nd wrote my rough draft thingy for the judge...and talked to people, as always.
.3rd-4th field study! pretty fun, finished counting tallies, etc.
.5th IN CLASS ESSAY! *dun dun dun dun* henry picked it and i was looking over his shoulder and read it before he did...that was DEFINITELY the worst part...but after it had sunk in which question you got it was really easy. (we got "what is the catalyst of reform")
.6th-7th left for manicure & pedicure..mmm. sooo relaxing...they massage your feet and hands and give you like mini bubble baths for your hands & feet and they get so soft and smell so good! haha when i walked into fps sally was like "hey no fair you smell too good!" haha good times. so yeah i got a french manicure/pedicure and it looked perfect with my dress! and didn't even get messed up at soccer! yayness and pie!
.8th i got there with like 15 minutes left or something. signed adam's yearbooks and stephen's too and uhh that'd be it!
so hrrm went home...went to the store to get new conditioner...took a shower, dried my hair, got dressed, kate curled my hair (HAH! like that lasted) and then i was set to go! ok so i was like 30 minutes late to shelly's party, but still! i signed ashley's yearbook and michelle's too there...and had nachos...and took a billion pictures like it was prom or something hahha. and yeah that was it cause then we had to go!
we got there "fashionably late" at like 7.15-7.30 or something, and mrs. brooks was there! aww it was so sweet! never got to say hi to her though...oh well. so hmmm here's an abbreviated list of all the people i talked to/hung out with/saw, basically: sally, shea, chris, michelle, andrea, ashley, anne, alex, adam, scott, betty, avery, julian, sascha, colin, hannah...yea etc. etc. whatever! but it was the greatest feeling, all these people who never come to dances actually went this time! yay! everyone was soo pretty and we all dressed up and i had a best friend around every corner and it was just so much fun. i danced with shea a ton (fast dancing, you know) haha we had a little swing dancing! and yeah we were being sooo silly! and i danced with scott (the slow kind) and shea (the top-slow bottom-fast kind! HAHAHA i love ya buddy!) and yeah. GO SALLY! she got into the dance competition because she was a CLOCK. so creative =). yeah the rest of the slow songs i danced with chris...durrr. ooh my goodness the last one was so sweet! *goes off into heaven* *comes back down to finish blog entry*
so anyway. then sally, chris & i hung out in the gym until chris's dad came and then sally & i went home! and her mom made CRAP for us! (crepes...duh) and they were sooo yummy and just what i needed. THEN we got in our pj's and took a midnight ride in the back of her new ford '66 pickup truck! it's baby blue & white and just THE SHIZNIT! it was soo much fun...lol it was all windy and we rolled around in the back...but the metal was hard on my butt *ouch* haha. and i saw the first official firefly of summer! =D so yeah. came back in watched finding nemo up to crush the turtle, then we were like about to fall asleep (dancing your ass off can do that to ya) so we went to bed. then woke up...
BYE BYE MISS AMERICAN PIE!
i really don't feel like talking about today.
so yeah i'm about to go out to dinner with my mommy! well, at 8.00. jensen's in southport...again...and kate is camping with dad.
i can't believe this is our last week of school. at all. i love you guys too much.
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5.19.2004
[mood]: pensive, exited
[music]: the luckiest--ben folds
[countdown]: 7 days left of school
have you ever felt so strongly that you couldn't even find the words to say what you feel? that those words you do chose to use seem almost confinsing, as if you're dumbing-down what you really want to express? i guess that's why recently a lot of my poetry has been confusing and not as flowing mentally as it is figureatively. oh well. i just can't seem to grasp the fact of how much i'm going to miss ligon. just the way we wander...everywhere, anywhere, any time, any place. (i prefer not to use the term "skipping" because that's not what we do...) during 1st? i wandered with shea. 2nd-5th? field study...that was actually so much fun! we (shea, colin, sascha & i) did service work because we did a social sciences thing so we didn't actually do stuff with the stream. but...it was just a lot of fun. i mean sure...they're such freakin GUYS!!! lol but it was still fun. it was just a beautiful day and i was just feeling light hearted and care free and unrestrained and unchained and...well i'm looking foward to it again on friday--and here i was dreading it. hahaha. then 6th--wandered down to the arts trailer fields again with shea, sally, & chris. couldn't find andrea today. but yeah...i'm going to miss that so much. just lying on that hill under the sun on these absolutely gorgeous days with these people that i love so so so incredibly much and that love me and that know me so well and that i feel beyond comfortable with...and shea? shea's not going to enloe. oh yeah neither are sascha or colin, along with adam. i mean i guess i'm lucky that those are the only people leaving. but still...at enloe i won't know the school well enough for a looong time before i'm able to just wander down and lay in a field for an hour, you know? then 8th--for once i didn't wander! but i usually do...i mean i sign my own freakin pass (i'm gonna miss being able to do that next year...) and then grab some friends and just go...down to the gym, on church street, to the library, to the cafeteria...anywhere, just walking slow and talking and laughing and soaking up the sun and the moment. i guess i am taking advantage of every single second i have left at ligon...but somehow the clock goes faster and faster. and tomorrow is my last soccer practice ever with the starz...which makes me really sad. i love my team so much. i really desperately don't want to leave them. i'm already going to a new school next year, i don't need a new soccer team to adjust to, too. i mean i know i could handle it but i'd like at least a little bit of familiarity.
so...i'm really excited for friday. it's going to be amazing...i just know it! field study, in-class essay (can't wait to get that over with), getting ready, shelly's party, the dance, sleepover at sally's...mmm.
i was thinking. (don't hurt yourself! says my mom) does devoting this much feeling to a person make you weak? because something someone said implied that it does. when in the past, being attached to so many people...i've made myself to strong because it's inevitable that you will get knocked down and crushed so many times that you just have to keep getting up and that makes you stronger. but as i said in my poem nothing...i don't need to be stronger anymore. i'm willing to put myself on a limb for this, a thousand times over. i'm not so naive that i think this is how it's always going to be...i think every single day what would i do without these people...without this person. and i'm willing to risk all that because i have fallen before, i have risen to my feet before, and each time i climb to higher and steeper and better heights. and each time i manage to find a foothold sooner, i manage to only fall halfway down the mountain instead of all the way into the canyon. big metaphor...oh wait i need to put that poem up here that i wrote yesterday in science!
well i'm gonna go now. jensen got her wisdom teeth out and so we're pampering her (she's been good & nice lately!) and yeah...i didn't know i had this much to say so i really need to go...
so, downstairs with the family. stupid storm screwed up chris's stupid cell. *hiss*. it needs some major medication, lemme tell ya.
[music]: the luckiest--ben folds
[countdown]: 7 days left of school
have you ever felt so strongly that you couldn't even find the words to say what you feel? that those words you do chose to use seem almost confinsing, as if you're dumbing-down what you really want to express? i guess that's why recently a lot of my poetry has been confusing and not as flowing mentally as it is figureatively. oh well. i just can't seem to grasp the fact of how much i'm going to miss ligon. just the way we wander...everywhere, anywhere, any time, any place. (i prefer not to use the term "skipping" because that's not what we do...) during 1st? i wandered with shea. 2nd-5th? field study...that was actually so much fun! we (shea, colin, sascha & i) did service work because we did a social sciences thing so we didn't actually do stuff with the stream. but...it was just a lot of fun. i mean sure...they're such freakin GUYS!!! lol but it was still fun. it was just a beautiful day and i was just feeling light hearted and care free and unrestrained and unchained and...well i'm looking foward to it again on friday--and here i was dreading it. hahaha. then 6th--wandered down to the arts trailer fields again with shea, sally, & chris. couldn't find andrea today. but yeah...i'm going to miss that so much. just lying on that hill under the sun on these absolutely gorgeous days with these people that i love so so so incredibly much and that love me and that know me so well and that i feel beyond comfortable with...and shea? shea's not going to enloe. oh yeah neither are sascha or colin, along with adam. i mean i guess i'm lucky that those are the only people leaving. but still...at enloe i won't know the school well enough for a looong time before i'm able to just wander down and lay in a field for an hour, you know? then 8th--for once i didn't wander! but i usually do...i mean i sign my own freakin pass (i'm gonna miss being able to do that next year...) and then grab some friends and just go...down to the gym, on church street, to the library, to the cafeteria...anywhere, just walking slow and talking and laughing and soaking up the sun and the moment. i guess i am taking advantage of every single second i have left at ligon...but somehow the clock goes faster and faster. and tomorrow is my last soccer practice ever with the starz...which makes me really sad. i love my team so much. i really desperately don't want to leave them. i'm already going to a new school next year, i don't need a new soccer team to adjust to, too. i mean i know i could handle it but i'd like at least a little bit of familiarity.
so...i'm really excited for friday. it's going to be amazing...i just know it! field study, in-class essay (can't wait to get that over with), getting ready, shelly's party, the dance, sleepover at sally's...mmm.
i was thinking. (don't hurt yourself! says my mom) does devoting this much feeling to a person make you weak? because something someone said implied that it does. when in the past, being attached to so many people...i've made myself to strong because it's inevitable that you will get knocked down and crushed so many times that you just have to keep getting up and that makes you stronger. but as i said in my poem nothing...i don't need to be stronger anymore. i'm willing to put myself on a limb for this, a thousand times over. i'm not so naive that i think this is how it's always going to be...i think every single day what would i do without these people...without this person. and i'm willing to risk all that because i have fallen before, i have risen to my feet before, and each time i climb to higher and steeper and better heights. and each time i manage to find a foothold sooner, i manage to only fall halfway down the mountain instead of all the way into the canyon. big metaphor...oh wait i need to put that poem up here that i wrote yesterday in science!
well i'm gonna go now. jensen got her wisdom teeth out and so we're pampering her (she's been good & nice lately!) and yeah...i didn't know i had this much to say so i really need to go...
so, downstairs with the family. stupid storm screwed up chris's stupid cell. *hiss*. it needs some major medication, lemme tell ya.
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5.18.2004
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[mood]: restless
[music]: collective soul (can't pick a song)
[countdown]: 8 days left of school
i feel like i should be updating, but i forget what about.
we're gonna get slaughtered on saturday...we're only gonna have one sub and it's just gonna be very very painful. oh well. at least i can sleepover now! yay! (at sally's. duh.) and hmm what else. geometry eoc's today and i had to guess on a few because my calculator wasn't in the right setting for the sin/cos/tan things. that positively sucks. oh well.
three words: blue raspberry slushie. haha sorry it's definitely grown on me by now though. =)...yes, i'll live. so hmm no piano today, which was a relief. i'm PEELING...in the ONE PLACE I CAN'T!!! on my neck that was the once place i had to get tan for my dress, it's peeling now! *dies*. oh well. sorry spaz. and now let's see. i gotta experiment with my hair...need to figure out how i can wear it. oh yeah, and i slammed my toe in the car door today. it was really pathetic. cause i just started crying. it's really not supposed to be pms but it's so weird and random it might be.
i am in no way looking foward to the field study tomorrow! AUGHNESS!
wow this is sooo pointless...no more random updating for me. au revoir.
oh wait, just one more bad thing: i have severe writer's block...i have all these things stirring around inside of me and i have no idea what i'm trying to say so i can't write poetry or stories or anything. it's so depressing.
*think happy thoughts!* dance, michelle's party, sleepover, manicure/pedicure, state cup finals, ligonfest, ocean's 11, shea's birthday party, yearbooks...*breathe in, breathe out*
[music]: collective soul (can't pick a song)
[countdown]: 8 days left of school
i feel like i should be updating, but i forget what about.
we're gonna get slaughtered on saturday...we're only gonna have one sub and it's just gonna be very very painful. oh well. at least i can sleepover now! yay! (at sally's. duh.) and hmm what else. geometry eoc's today and i had to guess on a few because my calculator wasn't in the right setting for the sin/cos/tan things. that positively sucks. oh well.
three words: blue raspberry slushie. haha sorry it's definitely grown on me by now though. =)...yes, i'll live. so hmm no piano today, which was a relief. i'm PEELING...in the ONE PLACE I CAN'T!!! on my neck that was the once place i had to get tan for my dress, it's peeling now! *dies*. oh well. sorry spaz. and now let's see. i gotta experiment with my hair...need to figure out how i can wear it. oh yeah, and i slammed my toe in the car door today. it was really pathetic. cause i just started crying. it's really not supposed to be pms but it's so weird and random it might be.
i am in no way looking foward to the field study tomorrow! AUGHNESS!
wow this is sooo pointless...no more random updating for me. au revoir.
oh wait, just one more bad thing: i have severe writer's block...i have all these things stirring around inside of me and i have no idea what i'm trying to say so i can't write poetry or stories or anything. it's so depressing.
*think happy thoughts!* dance, michelle's party, sleepover, manicure/pedicure, state cup finals, ligonfest, ocean's 11, shea's birthday party, yearbooks...*breathe in, breathe out*
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5.16.2004
[mood]: really really really happy
[music]: politically correct--sr.71
[countdown]: 10 days left of school
WOW so much as happened. basically this weekend i got really bad sunburn and kicked ass in the soccer tournament. yes yes i know so much fun. but let's start way back when in the actual school week!
thursday was iffy...weird...ok. the preps had a revolt in our social studies class and sat in all of our seats...*GASP* so instead we all just sat on the floor in front of the front row. i know...=). and then the next day they sat in my seat again even though shea saved it. so yeah...i just sat on the floor between his desk and mine. SERVES HER RIGHT! *hmph* sorry now i actually have a reason to hate preps =D.
friday? very fun. i got judge for the ender trials! YESSS! sorry that makes me very happy. and then the movies...chris, shea, scott, sally & i all went to see van helsing...it was an OK movie i guess. but it was very very fun! lol all of us but scott got a ride with sally...and we hung out at target for like 30 minutes before it started. heh heh fun stuff. stocked up on food so we wouldn't get ripped off ^_^. then we met up at the theater and watched the movie etc. etc. and then afterwards we sat like bums outside the theater with chris waiting for his ride. (i found out later mrs. guardiola called my mom asking where he was...=O *GASP* because his brother hadn't relayed the message yet...i think he's in BIG trouble, too. =/. anyway, then sally & i went to see mean girls...AHH i'm so glad i know nice, normal, friendly people. well, mostly hahaha.
so yeah...yesterday i woke up and went to the pool from like 10.30-2.30...AHHH i feel asleep and got really burned...but hey i got rid of that camisole tan line so now it won't be weird with my dress! whee! but hmm let's see then i went to lunch with my parents then we went on our way to winston-salem for the first game! it was at 6.00 which was nice and for once we were ORGANIZED! like we all got there at 5.45 and had organized drills and stretches and stuff...yayness and pie! yeah we were seeded 4th and they were seeded 13th...the score was6-0 us...i had SUCH a good game...definitely the best game i had all weekend. very fun. =). then we drove back! we stopped for dinner and mom told me something sad...if the tickets are too expensive for spain...i can't go. *hmph* but that's like if they;re more than $2000. they'll probably only be around $1200. we'll see...cause tourism is down supposedly. *crosses fingers*
today we had a game at 12.00 and it was against a team from CASL who is really good...so even though they were seeded 12th it was gonna be our hardest game. we beat them 4-1 and the shot was BEAUTIFUL i mean it was on an indirect kick and she just had this great curve ball. but still...we won! yay! then i went to reynolda village for lunch and back at the field for our 4.00 game. it thundered a little bit before but never rained *darnit* oh well! it would have been sooo much fun to play in the rain...but anyway. we beat this team 6-0. they had 3 really good shots that i blocked...one was a corner...beautiful...but right to me =) and then an indirect kick...which i like dived through the air to get solidly...whee...and then a DIRECT KICK...because caity had a minute of...amnesia of the rules of soccer...and had a handball in the box! the girl like stopped and tied her shoe...and was smirking at me and crap. and i was like sitting there glaring and being all tough and just thinking get on with it. and all i did was watch the ball. one minute it was on the ground. the next? i had dived and punched off to the right side and it was so hard it rolled all the way over to the sideline and out. HAHA sorry that was my moment of glory. (direct kicks are VERY hard to stop). so yeah. that was my weekend! we're definitely going to finals now! i just really hope our game's not early in the morning, cause of the 8th grade dance! oh well i'll be fine.
whew very tired *sigh* time to shower and experiment with my hair for the dance ^_^
[music]: politically correct--sr.71
[countdown]: 10 days left of school
WOW so much as happened. basically this weekend i got really bad sunburn and kicked ass in the soccer tournament. yes yes i know so much fun. but let's start way back when in the actual school week!
thursday was iffy...weird...ok. the preps had a revolt in our social studies class and sat in all of our seats...*GASP* so instead we all just sat on the floor in front of the front row. i know...=). and then the next day they sat in my seat again even though shea saved it. so yeah...i just sat on the floor between his desk and mine. SERVES HER RIGHT! *hmph* sorry now i actually have a reason to hate preps =D.
friday? very fun. i got judge for the ender trials! YESSS! sorry that makes me very happy. and then the movies...chris, shea, scott, sally & i all went to see van helsing...it was an OK movie i guess. but it was very very fun! lol all of us but scott got a ride with sally...and we hung out at target for like 30 minutes before it started. heh heh fun stuff. stocked up on food so we wouldn't get ripped off ^_^. then we met up at the theater and watched the movie etc. etc. and then afterwards we sat like bums outside the theater with chris waiting for his ride. (i found out later mrs. guardiola called my mom asking where he was...=O *GASP* because his brother hadn't relayed the message yet...i think he's in BIG trouble, too. =/. anyway, then sally & i went to see mean girls...AHH i'm so glad i know nice, normal, friendly people. well, mostly hahaha.
so yeah...yesterday i woke up and went to the pool from like 10.30-2.30...AHHH i feel asleep and got really burned...but hey i got rid of that camisole tan line so now it won't be weird with my dress! whee! but hmm let's see then i went to lunch with my parents then we went on our way to winston-salem for the first game! it was at 6.00 which was nice and for once we were ORGANIZED! like we all got there at 5.45 and had organized drills and stretches and stuff...yayness and pie! yeah we were seeded 4th and they were seeded 13th...the score was
today we had a game at 12.00 and it was against a team from CASL who is really good...so even though they were seeded 12th it was gonna be our hardest game. we beat them 4-1 and the shot was BEAUTIFUL i mean it was on an indirect kick and she just had this great curve ball. but still...we won! yay! then i went to reynolda village for lunch and back at the field for our 4.00 game. it thundered a little bit before but never rained *darnit* oh well! it would have been sooo much fun to play in the rain...but anyway. we beat this team 6-0. they had 3 really good shots that i blocked...one was a corner...beautiful...but right to me =) and then an indirect kick...which i like dived through the air to get solidly...whee...and then a DIRECT KICK...because caity had a minute of...amnesia of the rules of soccer...and had a handball in the box! the girl like stopped and tied her shoe...and was smirking at me and crap. and i was like sitting there glaring and being all tough and just thinking get on with it. and all i did was watch the ball. one minute it was on the ground. the next? i had dived and punched off to the right side and it was so hard it rolled all the way over to the sideline and out. HAHA sorry that was my moment of glory. (direct kicks are VERY hard to stop). so yeah. that was my weekend! we're definitely going to finals now! i just really hope our game's not early in the morning, cause of the 8th grade dance! oh well i'll be fine.
whew very tired *sigh* time to shower and experiment with my hair for the dance ^_^
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5.12.2004
[mood]: sick, tired, hopeful
[music]: if you're gone--matchbox twenty
[countdown]: 12 days left of school
well, pretty uneventful week so far. it still won't get through my head that school is almost over. i only have 12 more days of going to ligon, and like...*counts in head* at least 5 of those days will be messed up schedules or something...*sad sigh*
eog week. yesterday's were really easy and i finished before the first break...calculator active. then i went to sleep for a while, woke up and finished reading ender's game (i love that book!) and then started in on stephen w. hawking's the theory of everything...definitely a good book. so then today was the calculator inactive...took longer for me than it usually does. i took like 45 minutes or something >_< oh well. it's probably because i feel like i'm going to die...got the worst allergies in the world! i swear! never had them before and all the sudden they're killing me...i really hope it's not something contagious *sorry chris if it is!!!* lol lol lol. sorry. anyway. haven't had math in two days! oh yeah and yesterday i had lunch detention...because i walked in as the bell rang (to science on monday)...and then yesterday i was late AGAIN and so i went into the bathroom and wrote a "note" to class and signed it from yalaki...and then so that made me like 5-10 minutes late..and i just walked in the room...and she didn't even notice. wow, so yeah sascha & i are definitely her little...haters. haha.
and then today? nothing really of importance. well except lunch...we go down to the arts trailers now...and just wander around in those fields out there. so pretty outside! well today we were like...why go to first period?! (our schedueles were messed up...1st after lunch...etc.) and so we stayed with yalacki...fun stuff! so i missed french...like we did anything in there. and so i walked into language arts and harrison yells at the top of his lungs you skipped last period! lol it was so funny. i covered well though. see that's the cool thing...i make straight a's and still find time to skip...a lot =D and yet people who never skip...fail. hmmm. oh yeah, i got an 85 on the poetry test. you know, the one i "tried to fail"? lol. i missed 3 elements and that's all. oh well. oh yeah, and i gave will sarratt a ride home...that cool kid!
i have no piano or soccer this week. no homework either. so i've been sleeping like all afternoon. hmm. oh yeah--i got a manicure & pedicure for next friday! before the 8th grade dance! man that's all gonna be so much fun. actually...it's during school...lunch time. it was the only available slot they had. heh heh =) and then after that is michelle's house and then maybe someplace for dinner. we'll see. oh yeah...everybody has to go to that regincy park movie showing on may 27. and then this friday we're probably gonna go see van helsing...again, we'll see. oooh man all the sudden i'm tired. chris is at the blink 182 concert tonight...haha his brother got tickets on a wednesday...genious...oh well.
*wanders off*
[music]: if you're gone--matchbox twenty
[countdown]: 12 days left of school
well, pretty uneventful week so far. it still won't get through my head that school is almost over. i only have 12 more days of going to ligon, and like...*counts in head* at least 5 of those days will be messed up schedules or something...*sad sigh*
eog week. yesterday's were really easy and i finished before the first break...calculator active. then i went to sleep for a while, woke up and finished reading ender's game (i love that book!) and then started in on stephen w. hawking's the theory of everything...definitely a good book. so then today was the calculator inactive...took longer for me than it usually does. i took like 45 minutes or something >_< oh well. it's probably because i feel like i'm going to die...got the worst allergies in the world! i swear! never had them before and all the sudden they're killing me...i really hope it's not something contagious *sorry chris if it is!!!* lol lol lol. sorry. anyway. haven't had math in two days! oh yeah and yesterday i had lunch detention...because i walked in as the bell rang (to science on monday)...and then yesterday i was late AGAIN and so i went into the bathroom and wrote a "note" to class and signed it from yalaki...and then so that made me like 5-10 minutes late..and i just walked in the room...and she didn't even notice. wow, so yeah sascha & i are definitely her little...haters. haha.
and then today? nothing really of importance. well except lunch...we go down to the arts trailers now...and just wander around in those fields out there. so pretty outside! well today we were like...why go to first period?! (our schedueles were messed up...1st after lunch...etc.) and so we stayed with yalacki...fun stuff! so i missed french...like we did anything in there. and so i walked into language arts and harrison yells at the top of his lungs you skipped last period! lol it was so funny. i covered well though. see that's the cool thing...i make straight a's and still find time to skip...a lot =D and yet people who never skip...fail. hmmm. oh yeah, i got an 85 on the poetry test. you know, the one i "tried to fail"? lol. i missed 3 elements and that's all. oh well. oh yeah, and i gave will sarratt a ride home...that cool kid!
i have no piano or soccer this week. no homework either. so i've been sleeping like all afternoon. hmm. oh yeah--i got a manicure & pedicure for next friday! before the 8th grade dance! man that's all gonna be so much fun. actually...it's during school...lunch time. it was the only available slot they had. heh heh =) and then after that is michelle's house and then maybe someplace for dinner. we'll see. oh yeah...everybody has to go to that regincy park movie showing on may 27. and then this friday we're probably gonna go see van helsing...again, we'll see. oooh man all the sudden i'm tired. chris is at the blink 182 concert tonight...haha his brother got tickets on a wednesday...genious...oh well.
*wanders off*
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5.09.2004
[mood]: excited, longing
[music]: times like these--gary burton
so. wow.
yesterday morning i woke up really really early for a saturday...ok fine later than i do on week days but still. i had a soccer game at 8.00 and it was SO MUCH FUN! haha we won 1-0 which is a really small score margin but that was because it was a good team and we had a good strong game. so that was nice. but i had another game at 12.30 and it was SOOO FREAKING HOT oh my word! we were playing two players down, so it was 9 vs. 11 which was completely not cool...so we tied 1-1 =( oh well. so then i came home and was all miserable about not being able to do anything with friends. and i couldn't put down ender's game oh my word it's such a good book! i'll be finished by tomorrow =D haha. so yeah chris slept like aaalllll day...because he's just messed up like that and so at like 1.00am he finally came back but had to sign off...and was like call me...so GUESS WHAT! i think it's becoming a late-saturday-night-ritual...=D. yeah we talked from like 1.15-4.30....it was so...great. i think it might have been the best conversation i've ever had. we talked about pretty much the theory of everything...the way feelings must have their own dimension and how time is made so the human brain can handle everything and what is nothing and where do all the things we say and do go and the way compared to everything we are nothing but to ourselves our lives are huge...and we talked endlessly on science & religion and their connections and what is a feeling like love...and what our souls are and why can't people just be together when they want to be...what is stopping us from being together and thinking at each other and what is communication and language and dreams and...ahhh i could go on forever. but we kept finishing each other's sentences and stuff...cause we knew exactly what we were talking about...only person to ever actually understand me when i talk about that sort of thing...so yeah. and i only slept like 5 hours. yikes.
near future: and oh my goodness eog's are tomorrow! yeah they'll be easy but they'll be a pain in the butt by messing up the schedules! *waaah* oh well. but on a better note...happy mother's day!!! for lunch we went out to the club for a couple hours and then came back home and i watched made-for-TV movies with kate...those are so much fun and so easy to make fun of! and now i really gotta crack down and do my IR and then error analysis.
distant future: summer plans are in the making for: 1). spain...of course! his parents finally sent my mom stuff to check out...can't wait for her to get home. 2). duke goalie camp...well no longer planning, i'm definitely going. yayness and pie! 3). enloe varsity team soccer camp...my parents want me to go with kate because i'll be trying out next year (ughness) and so it'll be helpful. i admit that, but i have a lot of possible plans for that weekend--the cruise, nyc, or spain... 4). visiting sally in nyc! i've got to do that, it would be sooo cool! gotta figure out if they're actually formal plans, though. 5). virginia cruise with shea...that's probably the least likely thing to happen. we'll see! my parents are so cool these days you never know!
well...back to the PRESENT...homework time!
[music]: times like these--gary burton
so. wow.
yesterday morning i woke up really really early for a saturday...ok fine later than i do on week days but still. i had a soccer game at 8.00 and it was SO MUCH FUN! haha we won 1-0 which is a really small score margin but that was because it was a good team and we had a good strong game. so that was nice. but i had another game at 12.30 and it was SOOO FREAKING HOT oh my word! we were playing two players down, so it was 9 vs. 11 which was completely not cool...so we tied 1-1 =( oh well. so then i came home and was all miserable about not being able to do anything with friends. and i couldn't put down ender's game oh my word it's such a good book! i'll be finished by tomorrow =D haha. so yeah chris slept like aaalllll day...because he's just messed up like that and so at like 1.00am he finally came back but had to sign off...and was like call me...so GUESS WHAT! i think it's becoming a late-saturday-night-ritual...=D. yeah we talked from like 1.15-4.30....it was so...great. i think it might have been the best conversation i've ever had. we talked about pretty much the theory of everything...the way feelings must have their own dimension and how time is made so the human brain can handle everything and what is nothing and where do all the things we say and do go and the way compared to everything we are nothing but to ourselves our lives are huge...and we talked endlessly on science & religion and their connections and what is a feeling like love...and what our souls are and why can't people just be together when they want to be...what is stopping us from being together and thinking at each other and what is communication and language and dreams and...ahhh i could go on forever. but we kept finishing each other's sentences and stuff...cause we knew exactly what we were talking about...only person to ever actually understand me when i talk about that sort of thing...so yeah. and i only slept like 5 hours. yikes.
near future: and oh my goodness eog's are tomorrow! yeah they'll be easy but they'll be a pain in the butt by messing up the schedules! *waaah* oh well. but on a better note...happy mother's day!!! for lunch we went out to the club for a couple hours and then came back home and i watched made-for-TV movies with kate...those are so much fun and so easy to make fun of! and now i really gotta crack down and do my IR and then error analysis.
distant future: summer plans are in the making for: 1). spain...of course! his parents finally sent my mom stuff to check out...can't wait for her to get home. 2). duke goalie camp...well no longer planning, i'm definitely going. yayness and pie! 3). enloe varsity team soccer camp...my parents want me to go with kate because i'll be trying out next year (ughness) and so it'll be helpful. i admit that, but i have a lot of possible plans for that weekend--the cruise, nyc, or spain... 4). visiting sally in nyc! i've got to do that, it would be sooo cool! gotta figure out if they're actually formal plans, though. 5). virginia cruise with shea...that's probably the least likely thing to happen. we'll see! my parents are so cool these days you never know!
well...back to the PRESENT...homework time!
Posted by char at 5:40 PM
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5.07.2004
[mood]: content
[music]: here is gone--goo goo dolls
[countdown]: 15 days left of school
goodness. this afternoon i came home and slept from 4.30-6.30 and woke up feeling absolutely awful...and then walker got on and as always his level-headed listening got me right through. i don't know what i'd do without that kid! he's definitely gonna be my friend forever and ever. so i could go on and on about what was wrong...but i won't. (much to your happiness!)
let's see...gosh i cry a lot. i mean not flat out sob or anything...but i tear up in every class pretty much...and i during my nap i cried myself to sleep. i think it's coming out about the end of the year...i guess my heart knows that there's no way i can cry enough on the last day of school so it's gonna go ahead and start...lol. sally was sick today! poor crunchy...hope you feel better! well i know you do now but i'll say it anyway! heh heh...
and so then tonight was really fun! i went to first friday with my mom, and if you don't know what it is it's every first friday of each month and it's like an arts walk in city market...with live music and art galleries and restaurants and little stores & shops, it's really cool. my dad's in atlanta and kate's babysitting, so it was just a nice girls' night out with my mom! i definitely had a good time...we talked a lot about everything...the way jensen will probably be doing the deb ball this summer...har har...and about spain (i never would have guessed my parents would have been so cool about it! they ROCK!) and yeah my mom was like...i'm only worried about two things: 1). i know this is stereotypical but a lot of latino boys think that american girls are easy, so watch your back (*char thinks to self*: yes of course! i have chris to beat them up for me! lol...or his brother...or his dad...=p) and 2). terrorist attacks because they want to target americans because they know it will get our attention...and actually that is something scary. >_< so yeah if anything happens between now and then over there i can't go. otherwise it's all good. and then what else...we talked about kids and babysitting, where i should go for college (my mom thinks i could make it as a clothing designer pretty well! which is awesome! i probably wanna go to a school down south and major in enlglish and theology/philosophy/religion and then for graduate school go to nyc and then study a year in paris or milan...yayness and pie! other than that? just talked about random stuff. i'm still waiting for her to catch on about chris. we'll see.
well, gonna go back downstairs! au revoir!
[music]: here is gone--goo goo dolls
[countdown]: 15 days left of school
goodness. this afternoon i came home and slept from 4.30-6.30 and woke up feeling absolutely awful...and then walker got on and as always his level-headed listening got me right through. i don't know what i'd do without that kid! he's definitely gonna be my friend forever and ever. so i could go on and on about what was wrong...but i won't. (much to your happiness!)
let's see...gosh i cry a lot. i mean not flat out sob or anything...but i tear up in every class pretty much...and i during my nap i cried myself to sleep. i think it's coming out about the end of the year...i guess my heart knows that there's no way i can cry enough on the last day of school so it's gonna go ahead and start...lol. sally was sick today! poor crunchy...hope you feel better! well i know you do now but i'll say it anyway! heh heh...
and so then tonight was really fun! i went to first friday with my mom, and if you don't know what it is it's every first friday of each month and it's like an arts walk in city market...with live music and art galleries and restaurants and little stores & shops, it's really cool. my dad's in atlanta and kate's babysitting, so it was just a nice girls' night out with my mom! i definitely had a good time...we talked a lot about everything...the way jensen will probably be doing the deb ball this summer...har har...and about spain (i never would have guessed my parents would have been so cool about it! they ROCK!) and yeah my mom was like...i'm only worried about two things: 1). i know this is stereotypical but a lot of latino boys think that american girls are easy, so watch your back (*char thinks to self*: yes of course! i have chris to beat them up for me! lol...or his brother...or his dad...=p) and 2). terrorist attacks because they want to target americans because they know it will get our attention...and actually that is something scary. >_< so yeah if anything happens between now and then over there i can't go. otherwise it's all good. and then what else...we talked about kids and babysitting, where i should go for college (my mom thinks i could make it as a clothing designer pretty well! which is awesome! i probably wanna go to a school down south and major in enlglish and theology/philosophy/religion and then for graduate school go to nyc and then study a year in paris or milan...yayness and pie! other than that? just talked about random stuff. i'm still waiting for her to catch on about chris. we'll see.
well, gonna go back downstairs! au revoir!
Posted by char at 10:47 PM
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5.06.2004
hey...decent day today. i mean it was really good in a ton of aspects...but there's always that one little thing that can send you on a downhill spiral. *big sigh*
so let's see. language arts is gonna kill me i swear...just finished copying 10 personal poems into my journal...but i decided to just trash the elements thing. i'll get an A in that class anyway. i know that sounds awful...but it's true. and that just pisses me off...mrs. k is getting really slack with her instructions. i need to do all of my IR crap, too. ugh...and read ender's game but that's easy. haha finally i found a copy today...actually TWO! scott gave me his and sally's mommy bought me one! yay! heh heh. well let's see the math test tomorrow?? yeah, definitely gonna beast that. i can't believe that next week are EOG's though! oh my goodness! i wanna do something so badly this weekend but now i can't because of fuckretarded soccer. actually practice was ok today, but i mean i'd rather spend time with friends. tomorrow night i'm going to first friday with my family and they want it to be family...urgh...i want to invite somebody! chris actually cause then kate & garrett could meet him...but nooo. i'll probably still beg and whine though.
but anyway, today...it was going great-ish...i felt smothered by bad vibes during 6th (lunch) though...=/ and then 8th...ugh. man. i don't think he knows how much i love him. or how scared i am for him at enloe...cause there's lots of drugs there and stuff. i don't know how i got involved in this. funny, i wrote a story about it in february. no shit...it's actually sort of scary. ok so--it's established i'm psychic, moving on. i dunno...it was just a bad day as far as conversations go. i hope tomorrow is better.
god i still can't believe school is ending. i think i'm gonna cry right now.
anyway, one good part of my day--track meet! i wasn't planning on going until i heard sally & adam talking about it, and then i decided to give sally a ride home and to carnage and be late for soccer practice! it was really cool, the guys won their meet and the girls did well, too! people i saw there: sally, ashley, weiruoh, sascha, adam, anne, meghan, ranjan, fannezha, blake, meredith, an, etc. etc. don't feel like listing everyone. but it was fun. and spontaneous lol sally & i had trouble with forms of that word in the car...so anyway...
i don't know how to feel right now. i wanna be with chris to talk to him but he's grounded...it's just one of those days when you can't reach out. otherwise everything's great.
so let's see. language arts is gonna kill me i swear...just finished copying 10 personal poems into my journal...but i decided to just trash the elements thing. i'll get an A in that class anyway. i know that sounds awful...but it's true. and that just pisses me off...mrs. k is getting really slack with her instructions. i need to do all of my IR crap, too. ugh...and read ender's game but that's easy. haha finally i found a copy today...actually TWO! scott gave me his and sally's mommy bought me one! yay! heh heh. well let's see the math test tomorrow?? yeah, definitely gonna beast that. i can't believe that next week are EOG's though! oh my goodness! i wanna do something so badly this weekend but now i can't because of fuckretarded soccer. actually practice was ok today, but i mean i'd rather spend time with friends. tomorrow night i'm going to first friday with my family and they want it to be family...urgh...i want to invite somebody! chris actually cause then kate & garrett could meet him...but nooo. i'll probably still beg and whine though.
but anyway, today...it was going great-ish...i felt smothered by bad vibes during 6th (lunch) though...=/ and then 8th...ugh. man. i don't think he knows how much i love him. or how scared i am for him at enloe...cause there's lots of drugs there and stuff. i don't know how i got involved in this. funny, i wrote a story about it in february. no shit...it's actually sort of scary. ok so--it's established i'm psychic, moving on. i dunno...it was just a bad day as far as conversations go. i hope tomorrow is better.
god i still can't believe school is ending. i think i'm gonna cry right now.
anyway, one good part of my day--track meet! i wasn't planning on going until i heard sally & adam talking about it, and then i decided to give sally a ride home and to carnage and be late for soccer practice! it was really cool, the guys won their meet and the girls did well, too! people i saw there: sally, ashley, weiruoh, sascha, adam, anne, meghan, ranjan, fannezha, blake, meredith, an, etc. etc. don't feel like listing everyone. but it was fun. and spontaneous lol sally & i had trouble with forms of that word in the car...so anyway...
i don't know how to feel right now. i wanna be with chris to talk to him but he's grounded...it's just one of those days when you can't reach out. otherwise everything's great.
Posted by char at 9:50 PM
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5.05.2004
*tries as hard as she can to not count down the last days of school*
sooo yeah today was finally a good day with beautiful weather, yay! of course i took a forever nap when i got home. i am so bad about that! *slaps self* oh well. OOOH MY GOODNESS! i told my mom i needed to get ender's game and then i took a nap and now i won't until at least tomorrow. oh well. hahaha. it's really cold in my house...brrrrr ok so anyway.
wow, every day i get more and more excited about the 8th grade dance....it's going to be THE SHIZNIT! i'm bummed that we can't do the whole force-char-to-watch-anime thing this weekend though. i mean not really about the forcing to watch part but...you know what i mean. maybe.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i just realized i hadn't updated about this yet! *bounces up and down with excitement* so yeah. chris's family invited me to go to spain with them for 2 weeks this summer. *jaw drop* yeah i know. and i spent like 3 hours freaking out and not asking my parents...and then i asked them...(this was all on sunday) and they were like all excited about it! and i thought they might be unsure...but even with $$$ which i offered to supply (for ticket...only thing i have to provide for) my mom was all excited and she was like oooh no you can use all my miles! and...ahhhh! it seems too good to be true, doesn't it? sort of like everything about chris...*smile*
uhhm i wrote an actual story last night and posted it on fictionpress. of course if you have any common sense you know that's not me speaking. well it is it's just a major major exageration. in a way it's sort of making fun of people who think like that. i dunno...might end up taking it down. i also have to figure out what to do with the personal poems...do you realize that we have like no homework except for all of this language crap? ender's game, personal poems, IR...*sigh*
oook anyway. i guess y'all figured out by now, but brooks is trying for enloe...that would be the coolest thing EVER! but tomorrow we have to start cleaning out all her file cabinets and bookcases during fps. it's gonna be sooo sad...and i was at carpool and talking with people...and they were all like yeah you're right you guys ARE like best friends...and i dunno what i'll do without the familiarity of it all! like having shea's locker right next to mine, and then mrs. brooks across the hall, and i can just walk down that hall and everyone there is my friend and walk around the corner and everyone there is my friend...and...ahhh...OK I WON'T DWELL ON IT ANYMORE RIGHT NOW!
instead, i'll take this handy dandy...survey! wheee!
FIRSTS
First best friend: first "best friend"? david, spencer, will, rachel, & lizzie (no, i do not remember who i met first!) and first true & real best friend? shea
First date: uhh i guess i'd have to say shea
First REAL kiss: aaron (thanks for the REAL it makes my job easier...haha)
First break-up: shea
First crush: spencer! he was my little kindgergarten boyfriend. and first "kiss"...but yeah that's why you had the REAL there, right? haha
First item that I stole: this plastic toy that was left in my sunday school room and i took it home and played with it til my parents found it and were like where the heck is this from and i took it back the next sunday...yup. haha i guess that doesn't really count, does it?
First self purchased album: lol don't laugh at me...GC TY&TH haha just last year...i burned up until then
First funeral: pawpaw's (my great grandfather on my mom's side)
First pets: argus...another standard black poodle...he died when i was like 4 though don't remember him too much.
First piercing/tattoo: both of my ears...ahhh i remember they did my left ear first...and i was crying so hard and i wouldn't let them do my seoncd one...>wimp<
First credit card: hahaha BELKS CARD! haha i don't think that counts though does it?
First true love: hmmmm wow. depends on what you mean. TRUE TRUE TRUE love? i mean i'm 14...not ready for marriage yet. but each time you love you love more than before...oh i don't know! i mean shea in a way....but we were just friends and didn't know it. i guess that leaves walker...
First enemy: *sniffle* do you want me to name my entire elementary school? ok...fine...nadia, patricia, rebekkah, anne m....ugh. don't make me. please...
First musician you remember hearing in your house: DMB or Spin Doctors or Bruce Springsteen
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LASTS
Last car ride: home from school
Last kiss: ugh...april 4 2003...SO SHARROD YOU CAN FREAKIN SHUT UP...(sorry he tried to start rumors at carpool today that he caught me making out...>_<)
Last good cry: hrrmmm. well like i haven't real good cried in long time. i mean i think it was more than a month ago...becuase i remember fps...that wasn't a real cry. and ever since then i haven't. well actually i have...at school one day before 8th period i think. or at home one time and i never told anyone about it.
Last library book: Miracle Worker
Last movie seen: School of Rock
Last beverage drank: some of ashley's water at lunch...=[
Last food consumed: corn
Last crush: chris!
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: black high heeled sandals
Last CD played: playing launch right now, it's the cool thing to do =p haha
Last item bought: express skirt & shirt and the shirt i'm wearing today...oh wait WHOOPS jk...lunch today at school
Last annoyance: uhhm sharrod. but that wasn't for real. or waking up at 7.15...when i went to bed at like 4.30...ugh
Last disappointment: school ending...but it hasn't ended yet! so i won't be sad...yet...
Last time wanting to die: uuuh errrr...not for real in a very very long time. well wait there was some time recently when i was like...uggh just let me die. don't remember why though! i think i was stressed over school and that's retarded
Last time scolded: today...but not for REAL hahaha "christopher!!!..." awww now i feel bad...
Last shirt worn: the one i wore today. ok fine the black one with the roses on it and the v neck in back and cowl neck and slit sleeves...yeah.
i know you all love those so much! =D
sooo yeah today was finally a good day with beautiful weather, yay! of course i took a forever nap when i got home. i am so bad about that! *slaps self* oh well. OOOH MY GOODNESS! i told my mom i needed to get ender's game and then i took a nap and now i won't until at least tomorrow. oh well. hahaha. it's really cold in my house...brrrrr ok so anyway.
wow, every day i get more and more excited about the 8th grade dance....it's going to be THE SHIZNIT! i'm bummed that we can't do the whole force-char-to-watch-anime thing this weekend though. i mean not really about the forcing to watch part but...you know what i mean. maybe.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i just realized i hadn't updated about this yet! *bounces up and down with excitement* so yeah. chris's family invited me to go to spain with them for 2 weeks this summer. *jaw drop* yeah i know. and i spent like 3 hours freaking out and not asking my parents...and then i asked them...(this was all on sunday) and they were like all excited about it! and i thought they might be unsure...but even with $$$ which i offered to supply (for ticket...only thing i have to provide for) my mom was all excited and she was like oooh no you can use all my miles! and...ahhhh! it seems too good to be true, doesn't it? sort of like everything about chris...*smile*
uhhm i wrote an actual story last night and posted it on fictionpress. of course if you have any common sense you know that's not me speaking. well it is it's just a major major exageration. in a way it's sort of making fun of people who think like that. i dunno...might end up taking it down. i also have to figure out what to do with the personal poems...do you realize that we have like no homework except for all of this language crap? ender's game, personal poems, IR...*sigh*
oook anyway. i guess y'all figured out by now, but brooks is trying for enloe...that would be the coolest thing EVER! but tomorrow we have to start cleaning out all her file cabinets and bookcases during fps. it's gonna be sooo sad...and i was at carpool and talking with people...and they were all like yeah you're right you guys ARE like best friends...and i dunno what i'll do without the familiarity of it all! like having shea's locker right next to mine, and then mrs. brooks across the hall, and i can just walk down that hall and everyone there is my friend and walk around the corner and everyone there is my friend...and...ahhh...OK I WON'T DWELL ON IT ANYMORE RIGHT NOW!
instead, i'll take this handy dandy...survey! wheee!
FIRSTS
First best friend: first "best friend"? david, spencer, will, rachel, & lizzie (no, i do not remember who i met first!) and first true & real best friend? shea
First date: uhh i guess i'd have to say shea
First REAL kiss: aaron (thanks for the REAL it makes my job easier...haha)
First break-up: shea
First crush: spencer! he was my little kindgergarten boyfriend. and first "kiss"...but yeah that's why you had the REAL there, right? haha
First item that I stole: this plastic toy that was left in my sunday school room and i took it home and played with it til my parents found it and were like where the heck is this from and i took it back the next sunday...yup. haha i guess that doesn't really count, does it?
First self purchased album: lol don't laugh at me...GC TY&TH haha just last year...i burned up until then
First funeral: pawpaw's (my great grandfather on my mom's side)
First pets: argus...another standard black poodle...he died when i was like 4 though don't remember him too much.
First piercing/tattoo: both of my ears...ahhh i remember they did my left ear first...and i was crying so hard and i wouldn't let them do my seoncd one...>wimp<
First credit card: hahaha BELKS CARD! haha i don't think that counts though does it?
First true love: hmmmm wow. depends on what you mean. TRUE TRUE TRUE love? i mean i'm 14...not ready for marriage yet. but each time you love you love more than before...oh i don't know! i mean shea in a way....but we were just friends and didn't know it. i guess that leaves walker...
First enemy: *sniffle* do you want me to name my entire elementary school? ok...fine...nadia, patricia, rebekkah, anne m....ugh. don't make me. please...
First musician you remember hearing in your house: DMB or Spin Doctors or Bruce Springsteen
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LASTS
Last car ride: home from school
Last kiss: ugh...april 4 2003...SO SHARROD YOU CAN FREAKIN SHUT UP...(sorry he tried to start rumors at carpool today that he caught me making out...>_<)
Last good cry: hrrmmm. well like i haven't real good cried in long time. i mean i think it was more than a month ago...becuase i remember fps...that wasn't a real cry. and ever since then i haven't. well actually i have...at school one day before 8th period i think. or at home one time and i never told anyone about it.
Last library book: Miracle Worker
Last movie seen: School of Rock
Last beverage drank: some of ashley's water at lunch...=[
Last food consumed: corn
Last crush: chris!
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: black high heeled sandals
Last CD played: playing launch right now, it's the cool thing to do =p haha
Last item bought: express skirt & shirt and the shirt i'm wearing today...oh wait WHOOPS jk...lunch today at school
Last annoyance: uhhm sharrod. but that wasn't for real. or waking up at 7.15...when i went to bed at like 4.30...ugh
Last disappointment: school ending...but it hasn't ended yet! so i won't be sad...yet...
Last time wanting to die: uuuh errrr...not for real in a very very long time. well wait there was some time recently when i was like...uggh just let me die. don't remember why though! i think i was stressed over school and that's retarded
Last time scolded: today...but not for REAL hahaha "christopher!!!..." awww now i feel bad...
Last shirt worn: the one i wore today. ok fine the black one with the roses on it and the v neck in back and cowl neck and slit sleeves...yeah.
i know you all love those so much! =D
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5.02.2004
happy may!!!
let's see, what's happened since wednesday? well over all it was a really great week. i mean sure some stuff has been driving me up the wall but i decided that i have tried to do what i can and as long as i'm doing the best i can do it's not my fault if people still don't like it. i mean...i shouldn't try to please everyone all the time should i? cause that's impossible...and usually what ends up happening is i please them instead of myself, and that's not cool. it's their fault if they can't accept that i'm doing my best. so yeah. ANYWAY...other than that i'm just sooo so so happy. i mean really on cloud 9...i consider myself so incredibly blessed. only 20 days left of school, and only 133 classes...heh heh i know some of y'all are excited about that! and oh man...mrs. brooks is like one of my best friends right now which i know is psycho but still...we tell each other everything...it's so funny! every afternoon after fps we stay and talk to her...and she's told me some stuff that i can't wait until she tells everyone! because before 5th on friday she was like alllll excited and she made me run and tell chris in loehfelm's room...haha it's so funny when you're friends with a teacher! ok i doubt that made any sense...but yeah fps is the bomb right now...sure every once in a while i get really bummed out about international...but i'll survive. basically all i ever do is find 20 minutes to go wander around outside with chris and then the rest of the time we talk with adam and sally...fun stuff!
so what else is new. made brownies yesterday, mmm yummy! then went to the mall with those crazy kids kate & garrett...and spent $100 and the really funny thing is i still have $200 to spend later. i'm selling my abercrombie card...anyone who wants it if you have $100 cash we can do a trade off. OR...if you wanna get together with friends to go shopping, you can split it up like 4 people give me $25 and then all go get like one shirt or something...but yeah i really gotta get rid of it. there's no way i'm getting anything from there it's fuckretarded.
so yeah then last night i watched school of rock with my parents and then at midnight started talkin on the phone with chris..ooh my goodness...the funniest thing happened: cause we hadn't talked all day we were talkin late and it was like past midnight but his cell phone kept cutting off so we kept having to call each other back and stuff...and my parents heard eventually and were like charlotte get in bed...so i got ready for bed and turned off all the lights and then i turned off all the ringers on the phones except one and i got in bed and we just talked til i fell asleep i think i fell asleep while waiting to call him back...cause every 5-10 minutes his phone would get grumpy and cut us off and i'd have to wait a minute or two to call him back or for him to call me back...like i woke up this morning at 11.00 and i was like WHOA cause i don't think i even said goodbye, and the last time i remember lookin at the clock was like 2.45am or something...but the phone was still in my hand. heh heh.
oh yeah and i thought i was so sneaky...but my dad came in this morning and was like...who were you talking on the phone with? and i told them...hahaha so yeah my parents probably know now. heh. heh heh.
random yes but classic...
so yeah soccer game cancelled today...nothin to do...but i'm really happy =D
let's see, what's happened since wednesday? well over all it was a really great week. i mean sure some stuff has been driving me up the wall but i decided that i have tried to do what i can and as long as i'm doing the best i can do it's not my fault if people still don't like it. i mean...i shouldn't try to please everyone all the time should i? cause that's impossible...and usually what ends up happening is i please them instead of myself, and that's not cool. it's their fault if they can't accept that i'm doing my best. so yeah. ANYWAY...other than that i'm just sooo so so happy. i mean really on cloud 9...i consider myself so incredibly blessed. only 20 days left of school, and only 133 classes...heh heh i know some of y'all are excited about that! and oh man...mrs. brooks is like one of my best friends right now which i know is psycho but still...we tell each other everything...it's so funny! every afternoon after fps we stay and talk to her...and she's told me some stuff that i can't wait until she tells everyone! because before 5th on friday she was like alllll excited and she made me run and tell chris in loehfelm's room...haha it's so funny when you're friends with a teacher! ok i doubt that made any sense...but yeah fps is the bomb right now...sure every once in a while i get really bummed out about international...but i'll survive. basically all i ever do is find 20 minutes to go wander around outside with chris and then the rest of the time we talk with adam and sally...fun stuff!
so what else is new. made brownies yesterday, mmm yummy! then went to the mall with those crazy kids kate & garrett...and spent $100 and the really funny thing is i still have $200 to spend later. i'm selling my abercrombie card...anyone who wants it if you have $100 cash we can do a trade off. OR...if you wanna get together with friends to go shopping, you can split it up like 4 people give me $25 and then all go get like one shirt or something...but yeah i really gotta get rid of it. there's no way i'm getting anything from there it's fuckretarded.
so yeah then last night i watched school of rock with my parents and then at midnight started talkin on the phone with chris..ooh my goodness...the funniest thing happened: cause we hadn't talked all day we were talkin late and it was like past midnight but his cell phone kept cutting off so we kept having to call each other back and stuff...and my parents heard eventually and were like charlotte get in bed...so i got ready for bed and turned off all the lights and then i turned off all the ringers on the phones except one and i got in bed and we just talked til i fell asleep i think i fell asleep while waiting to call him back...cause every 5-10 minutes his phone would get grumpy and cut us off and i'd have to wait a minute or two to call him back or for him to call me back...like i woke up this morning at 11.00 and i was like WHOA cause i don't think i even said goodbye, and the last time i remember lookin at the clock was like 2.45am or something...but the phone was still in my hand. heh heh.
oh yeah and i thought i was so sneaky...but my dad came in this morning and was like...who were you talking on the phone with? and i told them...hahaha so yeah my parents probably know now. heh. heh heh.
random yes but classic...
so yeah soccer game cancelled today...nothin to do...but i'm really happy =D
Posted by char at 12:13 PM
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