[mood]: oh, so happy
[music]: the best of what's around--dmb (under the table and dreaming album)

wow. so i leave for the beach day after tomorrow. adam got home today, ashley's back, i talked to shea even though he's at the beach, sally and shelly come back tomorrow (even though they both turn around and leave for florida, oh well). and this entry is dedicated to walker cause he just rocks. he knows why. and most of you have probably heard why, anyway =).
sooo today was busy. i woke up early to go to wake forest to babysit, the last time. i sort of got attached to my little twin! (sarah faith) oh well i'll see them again soon enough. anyway, i made a good chunk of money out of all that. $8/hour, sixteen hours.
so then i came home and showered and went out to lunch with mom & kate. then we ran some errands, then came home and kate and i went shopping!
so, yeah, this is what i got (keep in mind i went planning to get one skirt and top. HAHAHAHA. good one char):
.one skirt: blue with white flowers, short-ish
.two shirts: one white (can't ever get enough white shirts) and one pink, same style with a cinched neckline and split cap sleeves and yeah.
.poncho: haha kate was going to kill me! anyway it's pink frayed knit. fun stuff.
.capris: yeah the first pair i've ever owned. tracey ellen which is always good. pink/orange/yellow plaid. fun stuff.
.three pairs of earrings: oh yay! haha buy two get one free! haha i thought of ashley when i bought them! lol. a really cool white pair (which i've needed), silver hoops with lots of blue rhinestones inside (also needed something blue since one of my favorite pair dissapeared!) and gold hoops (my only gold piece of jewelry besides my nice gold bracelet, heh heh) that are chandeliers at the bottom. yeah.
and then i'm going to start with one double batch of chocolate chip cookies downstairs with my mom and we're packing food stuffs, all for the beach! i'm soooo excited.
alex gets home tomorrow! whoo whoo good stuff. oh yeah and launch stations work for me now! oh, happy day.
today it was just so absolutely gorgeous and kate and i drove around with music blaring and the windows down and i was like...wow what a great summer i had. and i really did. thank you so much, everyone. i love you guys!!!

[EDIT]
go listen to the hard candy album lyrics by counting crows. i love it them so, so, so much. such summer time-ness.
if i could give all of my love to you
i could justify myself
but i'm just not coming through
you're a pill to ease the pain
of all the stupid things i do
i'm an anchor on the line
of the clock that tells the time
that is running out on you
--
all the regrets you can't forget
are somehow pressed upon the picture
in the face of such an ordinary girl
--
she waits another week to all apart
couldn't find another day

[mood]: a little down, anxious, hopeful
[music]: experimental film--they might be giants, knockin' on heaven's door--guns n' roses

today i went to shea's!!!
we walked to b&n and i got a new journal and two cards for somebody! hahaha. then we went back home and made brownies which was a little bit hectic. and we took lots of pictures. (they'll be up on his photobucket page--www.photobucket.com and go to nevermoore's album.) then yeah we hung around and babysat for his neighbors but that turned out to be us playing "hide and seek" and really just being silly and jumping on trampolines, etc. then we took more picturses. yup. well there's no real explaining cause shea and i are so crazy, we can have fun doing whatever. lol.
yeah i don't know why i'm down...oh wait yes i do! well, alex is at the beach until saturday...although he said he'll call me...and i think he can get on IM, too...i'm worried we won't be able to do anything before i leave for the beach and then we won't be able to do anything until after school starts and...blah.
speaking of, i don't want to go back to school. ever.
this summer was too amazing. it was so different than i thought it would, right from the beginning. but i can honestly say i'm so happy with the things went and how everything worked out. it's just...great.
so yeah *sigh* adam's gone, too, and of course sally still is and so is michelle and they're not getting back until right before i leave...oh well.
i really wish i could have a date to the raleigh party. i dunno if i'm old enough though! =(. plus, i dunno if i've known him long enough, you know? oh well. i'll be pretty in my ball gown all by myself! hmph! hahahaha.

well yeah, i'm sorta bored, but there's no one to talk to at the moment. *wanders off*

[mood]: utterly overwhelmed in a good way
[music]: album: for the ride home--josh kelley

on one hand, this one is imperfect perfection.

on the other hand, this one is perfect imperfection.

man oh man.
but he's perfect. i'll go with that one.

oh yeah, definitely. perfect. in more ways than i could have asked for. mmhmm.

[mood]: still excited, and content
[music]: mixtape--butch walker

whoo hoo!!!
today i woke up early and went babysitting for those adorable twins! that was fine, even though it made me really tired the rest of the day...and of course i made more $$$! yay!
then i went to scott's party...whoo hoo! yeah picked up adam and stuff. we played ping pong and took pictures and watched bourne identity, which was pretty good. yeah that was all fun. then we had a cookout and that was yummy! hahaha and then we went and saw bourne supremacy...holy crap go and see that movie! it is sooo good, really intense and suspenseful and just flat out wonderful. i adored it to the tenth power, haha adam lol^10. ok enough of that.
so yeah, now we're making plans to go see i, robot. definitely a good idea. *cough cough* ahem yeah definitely.
so i'm home alone currently. yeah and uhhm...tired. but i'll just go watch tv and play with the dogs.

i love you guys.

[mood]: whoohoo! definitely content.
[music]: two--the calling (album) or anything the shins

wow. uhhm, yeah, definitely, wow.
well, today was defintitely a good day.
i had to wake up early, though (for me) to go babysit for our second cousins--two little seven-week-old twin girls. they are adorable. sarah faith and elissa...kate went with me and i got sarah faith and she was so sweet! she made the cutest little baby faces, like smiles and yawns and this surprised look and all she did was snuggle and sleep. well, her diaper did leak on me when sorta sucked (a lot) but it's all good. a nice quote:
"i would get up and dance if i didn't have a sleeping baby on my chest!" --me
so yeah, even though we're family, we got $$$. they live all the way out in wake forest, though, which sorta sucks. oh well, we're going again friday morning and next wednesday and friday morning.

continuing. just a note, today i would be going to spain with chris. but no. i guess i'm over it, in fact i know i am, but it's one of those things...a little bit sad. i tried to get in touch with him all last night to say bye before he left, but his phone is still an asshole. good to know some things never change, har har.

ok, let's get to the good part. i went to the pool with kate, andrew, and max!!!
oooh yes. i love my sister so much for finally planning something. and it was so much fun, we played ultimate frisbee in the water...cept with a football. haha. it was great. and then we got out and talked a while and then got back in and after a while it was just max and me and we had so much fun goofing around with all the kiddie toys...ahh so hilarious. then we rode back home and planned to make chocolate chip cookies, but it turned out to be too late. so we sat around watching hockey for a while then they left. they're coming back tomorrow to make the cookies, and while we're on the subject, it's most likely that we'll go to the beach after school starts. which happens to be unnervingly close. gosh, i can't imagine it. us in high school?!?! goodness.

so yeah, then we went out to dinner at porter's and kate got grumpy. she's been really weird around family lately, aside from me. around me she's fine. and same with jensen. gosh i'm so glad i'm still young, i can't imagine trying to run a family of five and keep everyone happy. you know?

so hmm yeah i'm very tired cause i had a late night last night and an early morning. *yawn* i would call somebody, but i'm too tired to talk. plus, scott's dad has this new rule where it's off the phone by 10.30 instead of 11.00. poo. and same with shea...plus i already talked to him today. another quote:
"oh yeah, i got a picture of my oven catching on fire, come on, definitely!" --me.
haha good ol' shea. but, i can't go to the beach with him this weekend. and the depressing thing is that he'll miss like two parties or something. hmph.

speaking of parties, i'm lookin forward to scott's. among other reasons, for the fact that walker might come. if he ever gets his butt back from the freaking mountains. well, i know he loves it so i hope he's having fun, but i miss him! *sigh* yeah so i hope that works out. very badly. and then hopefully there's something with the other group...yeah anyway.

oh! i can call sally! bet i will. and end up staying on with her til all hours.

"i know deep down in my heart that you love me, because once you told me so"

survey time cause i know you love them...

i took out all the basics cause you should know me. yeah, damn straight.

::what::
do you think about the way you look- we all have good days and bad days but guess what i don’t remember the last bad day! i think it’s perfect for me.
do you think about death- yeah. like infinity going on forever and what heaven is and if i’ll be able to relive stuff and if heaven is whatever you want it to be and how everyone i know will one day die and what it’d be like and how it’s shocking when someone’s just gone like that…
do you think about love- it’s the most amazing thing in the entire world. you will do anything for it. anything. and it can do anything for you. anything to you. no one should die without loving. love…is a word that no one knows what it means until they’ve loved.
do you think about fate- i believe in it to a point, but it’s sorta like this: fate gives you a hand and you give fate a hand.
do you think about your self?- i would never want any other life. i am so incredibly lucky to be who i am, to have the family and the opportunities and the friends and the mind that i have. i am proud of who i am and the way i am.
are you scared of?- guns, cancer, being alone, my house burning down.

::the dream side of you::
do you dream a lot at night?- way too much these days
black and white or color- color mostly but i think i’ve had a few black and white dreams
remember any of your dreams- all the time
what is your dream job- something where my name is known but i’m not hounded by the paparazzi or anything. i could be any of the following and feel like i’ve fulfilled a job: a seat in the government, a lawyer, an editor of a magazine, an anchorwoman, a fashion designer or an interior designer
do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul- sometimes. most of the time i already knew the feelings i feel in my dreams, but sometimes they surprise me.

::do you::
do you write in a journal or diary- whoo buddy everything. i have this and my other blog of course, but i don’t think that really counts. i’ve filled up seventeen diaries and i’m workin on my eighteenth, and i’ve been writing in those every night for a little over a year and a half, and with that i’ve been writing for seven years total.
do you believe in love at first sight- it’s an odd thing, not love. like this…connection almost. i’ve felt it twice in my life, possibly four times. but those other two times turned out to be only a connection, not love. but two…yeah. you just don’t know that it’s gonna turn into love. or maybe all of this is just me. it’s not based on physical appearance or anything, it’s more like…i’ve gotta know this person.
do you believe that every person has one soul mate- well. not exactly one, because there are different kinds of soul mates. there’s like best friend soul mates and marriage soul mates and just friend soul mates…i think that…maybe yes, but i dunno if it’s preset until you’ve met them. oh goodness i’m getting all confused now! i don’t know!
do you cry easily- waaaaay too easily. i tear up like every five minutes. well, on a bad day. on a good day i’ll only cry like once. but my record for not crying is like ten days or something.

::online::
how much time do you spend online- my screenname is always on, but i’m hardly ever at the computer anymore. especially if no one’s on. but i guess a fair amount.  
who are your best friends online- pretty much the same as real life haha. if you’re asking who i enjoy talking to the most though, it’d have to be walker. and then there’s adam, shea, alex, and sally if she gets on from nyc! and sometimes scott, but we never talk on IM anymore it’s more phone. same with shea. and sally, too, actually. haha.
real life best friend- sally belle marie, and shea & scott.
have you ever met anyone in real life- uhhm as in not from the internet? yeah i’ve met everyone i know in real life. cept maybe a couple of people from winston-salem or devin (not the one i went out with blegh), the one who wanted me to write lyrics for his band haha
do you buy things- lots and lots and lots of things! cd’s, books, clothes, jewelry, etc. oh yeah and movie tickets and dinner and lunch and stuff with friends.

::favorites::
favorite day- friday or saturday. i’ve always liked wednesday, too.
favorite movies- haha well if i could be a movie i’d be finding nemo cause everyone loves it and it makes everyone happy—like i wanna be haha. but i also love amelie, moulin rouge, ferris beuller’s day off, potc, all the lord of the rings, all the matrix movies, minority report, etc.
favorite actors- viggo mortenson, johnny depp, tom hanks, tom cruise, yeah.
favorite song- this question should be cursed for damnation forever. it’s waaay too hard.
favorite music- anything that just has one of those parts that make you stop what you’re doing and listen, a certain beat or chord that makes it memorable. any type of music, really. as long as it has a beat and good lyrics and a tune and is creative.
favorite colors- black and white, and then blue and pink

::when you hear ________ you think of::
bread- and butter
silver- chris (ok, for those slow people, it makes me think of the necklace he gave me)
baseball- durham bulls 
jeff- that creep guy who goes to rchs who fought over me in elementary school
dog- hugh & sophie!
feet- shoes!
warm apple pie- vanilla ice cream
socks- soccer
clown- scary (for some people, not me)
giant – the bfg!
a nun- the sound of music or sister act. vow of silence.
school- AWESOME! LIGON! ENLOE! haha ok i’m done now.

::relationships::
what is your sexual preference- straight— guys.
boyfriend/girlfriend's name- n/a…for now.
crush- oh, you mean my “options”? well if you’re reading this you probably know. if you don’t, ask me. i’ll probably tell you.
where does that special someone live- mmmrrrmppph. haha there’s three different answers for this one. heh.
things you like in the opposite sex- must have a sense of humor and be sarcastic, not harsh or cruel or cold to me, though. talkative and open. and physically, tall and eyes you can get lost in…and good hair. which is pretty easy. they have to be with me through ups and downs, and have to have connections in frequent areas. someone who can always make me laugh, and can listen when i cry, who i can be comfortable around. someone who's not mean to anyone and who doesn't hate frequently.
if you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing- hmm, visiting sally in nyc! well, anywhere with friends really.
would you ever share your heart completely with someone else- yes and i have.
do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed- depends on the mood. outside, because…well just because. but i love feeling safe in my bed.
name one person who's changed your life for the better- does it have to be one??? well that’s easy, walker. but he’s not the only one. sally, scott, shea, kate, my mom, mrs. brooks.
what is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in- goodness almost everyone can do that. but someone who always does that is shea. and of course sophie.

::numbers::
number of times i have been in love- once for real true all the way love. two other times besides that with small glitches. (the glitch people are chris & mac, you’re smart enough to know the other)
number of hearts i have broken- uhhm two for real, but some people say three.
number of times my heart has been broken- once.
number of people i would classify as true, could trust with my life type friend- let’s see. sally scott shea walker mom dad kate. i guess seven.
number of piercings- two, one in each ear
number of tattoos- nada
number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper- oooh i dunno, a little less than ten?
number of things in my past that i regret- i would say nothing, but lately i realized there is one thing. but i think that either way i could have handled that situation, i would regret something.

::favorites::
favorite animal- harp seal or dog or dolphin
favorite sport- soccer to play, basketball to watch favorite
store- goodness. arden b., uniquities, beanie + cecil, soho, delia*s, wet seal, express, belk, maxstudio, etc.
favorite feeling- love, excitement, contentment, and accomplishment. in that order.
favorite scent- the scent of a guy. preferably a guy i like. heh heh. or: miracle by lancome, heavenly by vs, pink  by gap, pink sugar by sephora, or the other garden one i can’t remember…
do you wear make-up- i think the last time i wore make-up was for the eighth grade dance (may21). or wait—i think i put a bit on for dinner in wilmington (june21).
which is more important, personality or looks- personality, no shit.
do you move fast or slow in a relationship- it’s interesting, if i move faster than it’s usually someone i like less. slowly, cause then it all means more, and it’s worth more, and it doesn’t need to happen for a good relationship. you know?
would you ever ask someone out- i have, and yes.
do you prefer blondes or brunettes- doesn’t matter.

::love, life & friends::
what is the first thing you notice about someone- height, hair, & eyes, and of course sense of humor. how they receive me.
when's the last time you cried- uhhm last night reading a diary (april25 – june14), but it wasn’t real tears. and today i teared up but it wasn’t real tears either. uhhm, as for real tears? july18.
what do you want to be when you grow up- happy. and we already went over this. (dream job…yeah)
do you sleep with stuffed animals- nope
do you like someone right now- again, went over this, “options”!
do they know- probably
do you have a best friend- OUI OUI! sally! and shea! and scott!

::do you like to::
do you like to give hugs- very very much!
take walks in the rain- mmm yes
do you ever have one of those falling dream- ugh yes all the time!
what is on the walls of your room- a monet print, a mirror, my sheers and drapes and curtains.
when you chew gum, what kind- if you know me at all you know i hate gum. heh heh.
do you use chap stick: all the time.
done any drugs: life.
smoked: never.
drank alcohol: yep
snuck out: sort of
snuck someone in: in that really weird dream where…oh well it’s just too weird. and yeah.
snuck into someone's house: uhhm, yes.
stolen: not really.
stolen and gotten caught: nope
thrown up or passed out from being drunk: how bout not
gotten into a car accident: yes, but i wasn’t driving or anything
broken a bone: does a fractured shin count?
lied to your parents: not that i can think of
sworn to god (or any other religous higher being) and lied: no
forgotten your anniversary: never. i don’t forget anything at all.
been suspended: no
gotten ISS: hahaha i got two days of LUNCH ISS from sharpe last year. for something  i didn’t do. what a bitch. but he was cool this year.
missed a detention: hahaha don’t tell ms. relyea, k? ooor mrs. gorham, for that matter. in other words yes, like five times. OH YEAH or mr. bock!
been expelled: nah
cheated on a test: come on, everyone has. not on a big test or majorly, though. not as in sneak-the-anwers-from-the-manual-and-write-them-on-my-hand or something. more like, look around the room for a helpful hint. and this was in like sixth grade.
cheated on your b/f or g/f: i’ve come to the conclusion that no, i haven’t. it was special circumstances. really.
watched jerry springer and felt like you weren't alone: err…no.
broken into someones house: haha yes. mine. and aaron’s. but it was with him.
done any sexual favors for money: ick no.
done any sexual favors for a family member: errr gross no.
hit the kid you were babysitting: felt like it. but no.
made a racial comment: not really haha…not seriously, as in racist.
faked sick by putting chewed up food in the toilet and said you threw up: eww gross no.

::are you::
gay: no
depressed: not “depressed”. i scare myself though. but let’s say no, cause i hate that idea. it was like a freaking fad.
a virgin: of coursea
slut: nu uh
religous: yes
smart: yeah, i must say so.
funny: hahaha well if i make everyone laugh…yeah. definitely. heh heh.
a good conversationalist: oh i hope so. well yes.
have sex often: never (i’m still fourteen, remember??)
plan to go to college: definitely
plan to get married: also definitely
plan to have kids: probably
lot of money: hopefully
mommy and daddy: do i have one? yes…
have a b/f or g/f: not currently
trust all of your friends 100%: all of them
take perscribed medicine for cramps: nope
enjoy porn: blegh no

::friends::
best friend- *sigh* wow we’ve already been over this. sally!
best guy friend- scott & shea. and maybe walker.
craziest- hahaha definitely me.
prettiest- oh i dunno. we’re all beautiful! hahaha
hottest- mmm…i know who i think is the most handsome! haha, oh i guess max is cutest.
most athletic- anne and max/alex.
best cook- that’d be ME!
biggest partier- haha…me again. i am the “party organizer” heh heh
most religious- shea
sluttiest- don’t hang with sluts.
best body- alex
most passive- hmm. dunno.
shyest- i dunno—not many shy friends.
most aggressive- andrea
known the longest- sally, but been close to the longest—shea & walker
known the shortest- alex, and before that camp friends, and before that max.

::if you could be a __________ what would you be::
tree- crepe myrtle on happy days, weeping willow on sad days
animal- sophie! haha
book- a ring of endless light—madeliene l’engle
movie- finding nemo
object- diary or flower
song- wow, i could never chose. can i chose one song to be for each day of the year??! haha
object of clothing- toughy. skirt? shoe? dress? ball gown? haha. ok, whatever makes the wearer feel great.
number- two or seven
sound- laughter or music
season-late spring or summer 

yup, there ya go!

[mood]: cloud ten or eleven or so
[music]: basket case--greenday at the moment, but more of KMWIM
 
well, life sure is grand.
today was adam's party! WHOOHOO!!! man it kicked ass, as fully expected by this particular participant.
but before i go bananas off about that, let me get on with my day. it was another absolutely gorgeous day and this morning i woke up early-ish and when to the pool with my mom from 10.00 -2.00 or so, and had lunch out there at the club.
then we went to the cameron village sidewalk sale (WHICH IS ENTIRELY DIFFERENT FROM A YARD SALE! GAAAAH I COULD NOT GET THAT THROUGH THEIR HEADS!!! hahahahahaha) yeah and i tried on another gown there but it wasn't quite right and i tried on the cutest sundress & skirt & a couple coats, but we didn't have time to get them cause we were running out of time.
speaking of, i was late. no surprise there, hahaha. so yeah: adam, shea, scott, john willis, alex, and max (not beam) were there. and then kyle came later (no knives this time, thank goodness!)
we walked to edwards mill bar and grill and i am fully surprised that they didn't kick us out. well, dinner consisted of me spewing (well duuuuh it's not dinner without that!) and some good old debate (well, we tried at least) and people trying to put money in sugar packets and throwing carrots. well those are just the really loud & obnoxious parts. we bet scott he couldn't eat three packs of crackers in one minute for ten bucks, and he couldn't!!! haha nice call, alex. over all, it was kickass. heh heh.
then we began to walk home. john threw a mint and hit my butt and it made me cry it hurt so bad, and now i have a huge WELT on my freakin BUTT. but then again so does john cause then alex threw one at him to get him back. so HA. and we played with a very hyperactive bouncy ball. OH WAIT! IT'S STILL IN MY PURSE! HAHA! and we all ran across the street except adam & john and yeah i dared alex & scott to go down the hill i fell down and they DID IT! without FALLING! *hmph* so i was walking away all "pissed off" haha and shaking my butt and flipping my hair and a freaking car honked at me! oh my goodness scott like fell down laughing so hard. so yeah anyway then john & adam tried to jump out and scare us but sorry it didn't work.
so then we attempted to play ultimate frisbee. but guess what, it didn't work. instead it just ended up being
adam, alex, me, joanna, john, kyle, max, scott, shea, and sophie (not my dog lol) playing with three frisbees and like chopping each other's heads off and tackling each other and yeah all that good old fun stuff. then we attempted to play capture the flag, but after we hid the flag shea, alex & i sat on the steps (and shea leaned on the dog gate after we tried to get it open for like five minutes, and then he just leaned on it and it fell and he fell with it...goodness i have never laughed so hard). yeah good times *WINK WINK*. no shea don't worry you weren't a fifth wheel...maybe a third wheel, but not a fifth one. and then we tried to play sardines (didn't work) and some flashlight tag, and that ended up just being shea, alex & i hiding in the woods (ok shea, at this point--MAJOR FIFTH-WHEELAGE!!!) and then we cut through someone's yard and just walked back around up to adam's house. and then we went inside and had cake & icecream. even though i left mine on the porch cause i didn't want anything to eat. (cause i was happy, and i don't eat when happy!)
and then we went and sat around outside till parents came to pick us up. and john told the story of binky which totally freaked us all out. BOO! POWDERED MILK! haha good times.
so yeah after all that, i lost my voice. *sigh* lol
and tomorrow i'm going back to buy all the stuff i tried on today.
and i have to call sally and tell her about tonight, but it'll be hard with my lack of voice. oh well!
 
MUCH MUCH MUCH LOVE!!!

[mood]: excited
[music]: sick cycle carousel--lifehouse
[countdown]: KATE GETS HOME IN 22 HOURS! WHOO!

ok, so.
i mean:
hokay, so.
let's see, my computer was on the verge of death for like 72 hours or something, but it's back up and running. i curse whatever fucking bastard made up viruses. DIE DIE DIE!
*deep breath* ok that felt good.
tonight i'm goin to see a movie with my BITCHES hahahaha. actually, i just said that cause that's what sally calls all her guy friends up in nyc. lucky duck. so yeah. that'd be scott, shea, adam, will...
i'm so excited to go to the beach with kate again! yes yes yes!
oh man i don't know why i updated this. i'll update my xanga later for after the movie.

can you swim through the oceans without getting wet//can you break his heart without any regret//cause if you can you were never like me//you were never what he didn't know he needed you to be
--check yourself

[mood]: i'll get over it.
[music]: somebody--bonnie mckee, everybody wants you--josh kelley
[countdown]: 4 days until kate gets home!


whoo ok so basically all i've been doing is summer stuff. i.e. the pool. and uhhm not much more. but my family rocks. the day to day schedule goes like this: wake up by 10.00am, go to the pool, go out to lunch, come home and walk the dogs, go to a movie or out to dinner or have a nice dinner at home. with variations, of course!
well, i talk like 3 hours a day with sally (total), but i guess that's just natural. (she's still in nyc) yeah for some reason i was really upset earlier...and then...goodness i let myself get so caught up in things. lol and then after all of my experience, it's surprising when they actually go my way. yessss.
well ok there's a lot of stuff i have to do when kate gets home:
1). go get a haircut (*gasp* YES! I KNOW! SHOCKING!) yeah it's gonna be like...only 1 or 2 inches off, though, don't get too excited.
2). music shopping! i made a list of cd's i have to buy. if you have any suggestions, give them to me!
3). clothes shopping! whoo the most exciting part. with my own money i have to buy a bathing suit, a sundress, a new nice-ish skirt (longer) and a new shorter summer skirt, and one or two new (cool) tops. then with my mom's money, i'm gonna get my two gowns, another sundress and another swimsuit, and of course shoes. i'm hoping for some nice new semi-flats and casual semi-flats. mmmhmm yup yup.
4). last, but certainly not least: GO TO THE BEACH AGAIN!!! with max, of course. oh yeah and andrew, dena, garrett, eric, etc. lol.
5). oh whoops, not the last! with the people above mentioned, we have to go see the notebook and also napolean dynamite, but if you read this you already knew that. heh.

wow, i have to babysit tonight, no fair! oh well *sigh*

uhhm...i forgot why i wanted to write in this. just loving summer because i know when high school comes around, i'll be all stressed and wish i could sleep late without worry of essays or exams!

[mood]: ever-hopeful
[music]: guster live album
[countdown]: 7 days til kate gets home!

hmm so today was definitely a good day. actually every day is, and as retarded as that may sound, it scares me...cause it means i'm getting over him...and...well yeah it's just my retarded complex. oh well. like yesterday i was goin over stuff in my head and listening off stuff...and i forgot about him! can you forget that! like every once in a while i'll stop and think--wait--there's something that's really bothering me and some reason i'm supposed to be sad right now...and then i'll remember but it won't hurt. i know i'm forgetting...augh can't let myself do that. so anyway...

GOOD DAYS
my mom & i have so much fun just hangin out. too bad jensen got back today, she's always tryin to put herself above me but it's so funny cause mom's always on my side. so yeah we went out to dinner last night and out to lunch today and go to the pool (GORGEOUS weather today, i might add, i felt like i was on top of the world!) and yeah.
today i went and saw spider-man 2 with shea, scott, & ashley. too bad adam was out of town, will didn't get our message, anne had soccer practice, and andrea couldn't get a ride. but yeah still it was fun. however i really wish that i could have had someone *cough* cause...it was very very very scary. and i kept getting the urge to you know, burrow my face in someone's shoulder, but uhh...to my right--scott. to my left--shea. uhhm, NO. well anyway our masterful the village plan will work out in the end, anyway.
yeah so i talk some with sally every day, and i wish i were up there in nyc with her! aww oh well. i'm going to either california or nyc for like a week before we go on our annual beach trip.
goodness, i have so many options. it's rather overwhelming. i am reading this book about this girl who has like no emotions and she hates it and i'm sittin here all like "well at least you don't have HYPERSENSITIVE ONES LIKE ME!!!" oh well.

this entry has been so random and there was something i felt like writing about, but i forgot...hrrm.

movies i have to see:
.the village (reserved for july31 when sally, ashley, shea (maybe scott) and uhhm masterful-plan-subject and i all go see it...but you can come, too)
.the notebook (reserved for kate, andrew, MAX and i)
.princess diaries ii (WITH SHEA! haha ok jk)
.king arthur
.i, robot (eh...maybe)
.anchorman
.bourne supremacy
.napolean dynomite (reserved for kate, garrett, andrew, max, shea, etc.)
.shrek 2
.stepford wives

yeah as if i haven't already given enough of my money to the cinemas. *sigh*

well home alone so time to go downstairs and take care of the dogs, make dinner, and you know do the normal stuff (music, piano, reading, tv, etc.)
782.5883 call me if you're willing to talk with the normal good ol' gushy char =).

[mood]: pining (really, there is no other word)
[music]: two albums: travels in the south--chris stamey, and stones in the road--mcc
[countdown]: 10 days til kate gets home

whoo hoo.
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!!
yeah that's about as much celebrating as i'm gonna do. and that's pretty much all i wanted to say...and then this:

i miss everyone. i wish i could have everyone at once...that i could be friends with everyone just...god i just miss the end of 6th grade...the last 3/4 of 7th grade...the end of 8th grade...oh i don't know it's just that there's all these emotions floating around in me and i can't even pin them down really. i surprise myself because i don't surprise myself, if that makes any sense. or maybe i don't surprise myself because i surprise myself...??? ahh whatever, it's just that...i need someone to talk to. god i just love too many people.

ok wow i'm gonna shut up now cause i swear none of you have any clue what i'm talking about. at all. what so ever. mmhmm. night night.

and to anyone i've ever told i've loved: i still do. always will.

[mood]: wishful
[music]: anything the shins
[countdown]: 12 days until kate gets home!

OOH MAN I LOVE THE SHINS! well we all already knew that but i thought i'd make that especially clear.
let's see, what have i been doing. well today i went and saw the terminal with sally, one last time hanging out before she leaves for big ol' nyc!!! it was a good movie, but something about it just wasn't quite right for me. i dunno it was a fine movie but it made me feel really, really sad in a way. i guess it got me thinking about that guy's (tom hanks) home and what it was like compared to america...yeah well anyway.
awww everyone's gone so i'm gonna be with my parents for the 4th of july...if you have anything to do, let me know, ok?!
i've just been hanging out with my mom a lot these last few days. shopping, the pool, out to lunch, etc. sophie had a VERY bad infection in both ears and a second one in her right, so she felt like shit while i was at camp, and now her meds are making her a bit woozy. so it's nice hanging out with her cause she's completely calm...what a sweetie! ok my girlyness is officially over!
ok, this is so sad, i'm waiting around for everyone to get back. there are SO MANY movies i need to go see! hopefully with max, and i guess kate & andrew can come along haha.
what would really rock is seeing spider-man 2 with shea, scott, and uhhm someone i really wanted to see the first one with a couple of years ago. HAHA wow i am THE BIGGEST LOSER but in the coolest way =).

i'm a bit confused though.