[mood]: finally rested, energized (unbelievable, i know)
[music]: fall to pieces--velvet revolver

well, yesterday was bad but last night was good. i guess talking on the phone for four hours straight can do that to you...even if you're kicked out of your own room which you cleaned all day and have to sleep in your sister's which is very messy. oh well, i survived. i talked to shea, then adam, then scott, then i hung up the phone and alex called but i had dinner then called alex back. so yeah that combination cheered me up. i have another soccer game today and it's rainy which is great because that means i'll get to slide around and yeah that's the best way to play goalie =D. so what else. i think i'm going out to lunch in a bit...and i have a few chapters in great expectations to read and then those three kifner questions. and i may start editing my paper...but i doubt it =).

in the mean time!

[H.A.V.E Y.O.U]
BEEN KISSED? yes
KISSED SOMEONE? uhhm...well when they kiss i'll kiss back...usually.
BEEN SAILING? yeah...but i need to go again with sally in rhode iiiisland! haha
STOOD AT THE EDGE OF A CLIFF? mmmhmm...amazing
BEEN SKYDIVING? haha...no.
ROCKCLIMBING? yes! it's so much fun
SANG TO YOUR FAVORITE SONG? every single day...i sing along to everything...cause i have like a million favorite songs heh heh
GONE TO SCHOOL BY ACCIDENT ON A HOLIDAY? i don't think so. maybe a long time ago in elementary school? yeah i think i did once. hahaha.
SEEN A CARTOON MARATHON? you know i hate cartoons =]
SPENT OVER $500 IN ONE STORE? haha yes, maybe more than is exactly healthy.
SOLD A PAINTING? yeah...
USED DUCT TAPE TO FIX YOUR SHOES? haha the first week of eighth grade my flip flop broke while waiting for the bus and so yeah will had some duct tape and yeah. =D
BEEN STARED AT FOR MORE THAN 30 SECONDS? well if you're ever around julian than the answer's yes haha. but other than that yes, too.
SET OFF A FIRE ALARM? ahhh sixth grade. last week? eighth period? yeah buddy. guess who.
SANG IN AN ELEVATOR FULL OF PEOPLE? lol yes...well i guess it wasn't full of people. but it was my sisters and my mom and i and it was at the grove park inn so it's not exactly going to be "full of people" if you've ever been there cause they have the old fashioned ones with the little gates and everything...but the guy who opens the doors for you was in there...hahaha.
CUT YOURSELF? yeah...HAHA i scrape myself with my fingernails all the time--on accident (yeah not what you were thinking.)
ATTEMPTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE? i've been stupid and threatened...
HAD THE NEIGHBORS COME OVER TO TELL YOU TO BE QUIET? told jensen to be quiet.
RUN WITH SCISSORS? haha YES. i did just the other day actually.
USED A PICK-UP LINE? i don't need 'em =]
SMOKED POT? never ever ever
ASKED SOMEONE OUT? hahaha. yes. but only walker. haha. and that practically doesn't count.
BEEN ASKED OUT? yeah
REJECTED SOMEONE? awww yes...and thinking of most recently...i love him anyway! (not like that he's my buddy though!)
SEEN A NUN IN PERSON? yup
MADE A SCRAPBOOK? i have like ten...heh heh
BEEN TO A DUMP? no
FAILED A CLASS? *gasp* no way...you know i make straight a's...oh RIGHT it's HIGHSCHOOL now...we'll see. i doubt that i'll fail anything. very much.
HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEONE AT LEAST 3 YEARS OLDER THAN YOU? not really. one year? yes three times. two years? once. three years? nah. oh, well, it also depends on your definition of crush...
SHANKED SOMEONE/BEEN SHANKED? no but i've seen it happen at soccer tournaments waaay too many times.
DANCED WHEN NO ONE WAS WATCHING? all the time...hahaha
SEEN A MOVIE IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE? yes! actually one of my favorites...
BEEN TO PARIS? not yet!

[W.H.I.C.H]
BLUE/BLACK? black
SUNRISE/SUNSET? sunset...they have more colors in them...and plus you don't have to get up at the crack of dawn--literally--to watch them haha
CHOCOLATE/VANILLA? chocolat
DO IT/WATCH IT? unless it's watching someone do something stupid...do it.
FRIDAY/SATURDAY? FRIDAY! definitely!
TESTS/POP QUIZZES? tests, unless it's a pop quiz and i know everything on it...cause then i feel special haha
MOVIES/PLAYS? movies most of the time, but i love both
BBQ/SALAD? salad
POP/R&B? depends on what kind of mood i'm in. good--pop, bad--r&b...if either at all.
ROCK/RAP? rock a thousand times over
CASH/CHECK? cash! it's such a pain to cash checks
LOOKS/SMARTS? smarts, definitely. (haha chris you know my current complaint...) but looks don't hurt. ever.
DOGS/CATS? dogs without a doubt (sorry alex!)

[F.A.V.E.S]
ICE CREAM? chocolate chip cookie dough
DESSERT? chocolate pie
CANDY? lifesavers or twix (don't worry alex, you won't have to buy me carrots on valentine's day...hahahaha man good times)
SCHOOL SUBJECT? it used to always be history, but this year it's english. for two reasons: the teachers and then i'm actually...a writer. so yeah.
ANIMAL? harp seal! they're sooo adorable. actually anything adorable. haha. wow i'm such a girl.
CAR? bmw jaguar saab mercedes benz...i'll settle for.
BAND? what an infinitely impossible question.
PET? dogs! they're the next best thing to people, if not even better cause they always love you no matter what you do!
BOOK? a ring of endless light maybe?
MOVIE? heh heh...ferris beuller's day off, amelie, matrix and matrix: reloaded, all of the lotr movies, charade, what's up doc, steel magnolias...yeah i could just go on forever.

[C.U.R.R.E.N.T]
CLOTHES? my pajamas...from sally! haha blue cami and my little striped shorts
HAIR? back in a ponytail and then a twist thingy...but wild and crazy haha
THOUGHT? i just realized i'm really hungry...it's 1.00 and i haven't eaten.
DISSAPOINTMENT? uhhm there was something i was upset over but i can't remember...heh heh.
EXCITEMENT? next weekend? haha well school tomorrow cause i like it (i know what a freak!)
WORRY? i've just gotta stay on top of all this work...
ANNOYANCE? this stupid cold i have...

[L.A.S.T]
LAUGH? last night on the phone...i guess with alex cause i talked to him last
CRY? uhhm yesterday. my mommy was being mean =(
HUG? i guess friday night with alex...
KISS? friday night with alex
PHONE CALL? shea adam scott alex scott alex...last night (yes in that order lol)
IM CONVERSTAION? like a real one? with sally yesterday afternoon
THING YOU BOUGHT? does the enloe football game ticket count?
MOVIE? perfect score on friday afternoon. oh yeah and like thirty minutes of water boy haha
BOOK? no. don't even make me think of dickens...
MEAL? dinner last night. so i need to go eat. so yeah i'm leaving. bye.

[mood]: ahh so happy
[music]: after all these years and love your life--silverchair, last nite--the strokes, whatever song was in my head all day that i didn't know (hahaha alex)

well yeah today was definitely another good day!
man, i wish i could go to the library every day. i sort of got in trouble for it today. like my mom isn't so dumb that she can't see through the library name and into the fact that i'm with friends...but oh well. i'm going tomorrow and friday anyway =D. and today i actually did get work done! okay, well we did until we went out onto the mid level parking lot...hahahaha chris--you know my stories. but it's just so nice...it was an absolutely gorgeous day today, and *yawn* oh sorry and it was so relaxing, even if i was about to fall asleep...haha...and yeah it just made me happy...okay enough...
yeah well everything makes me happy. except for sally, she had a bad day so i feel sad for her. cause the stupid people are screwing up her campaign for senate, and she has a cold. GET BETTER SALLY BELLE MARIE!
school work is a piece of cake. so far.
*huge yawn* yeah well that bout says it all. EARLY BED TIME FOR ME! oh yes. man i can't even make a good sentence about today.

[mood]: unphased
[music]: layla--eric clapton

wow, highschool makes things like ten times more complicated. i don't neccessarily mean that in a bad way, it just does. i mean, if you haven't noticed stuff like adam & me and sally, and then alex, and then chris's stuff...plus working load and people like shea and adam not going here, and...well yeah stuff just gets so many layers piled on top of it, i've sort of given up trying to get to the heart of things and have just sort of gone with the flow. uhhm...okay well yeah just thought i'd mention that...?

::stuff you probably know::
[known as]: char, charlie, sharly, char girl, char la la, charlizzle, chartruese, jacqueline, creamy, char grill, charmin, shealotte II...yup i think that's it. (even though i came up with fifteen the other day riding alex's bus...hmm.)
[hours wasted away usually]: playing soccer, playing piano, at school, at movies, at the library, pretty much always with friends, or computer time, writing, music, dogs...
[prescense first graced the earth]: april twenty-third nineteen-ninety

::last::
[movie]: in the theater, the village. oh i know, it's been so long!
[book]: great expectations...I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS! i called it. tell me when you get to when that pocket jr. guy is telling miss havisham's story to pip...i figured out who everyone is. if you wanna know my theory, ask me, but i know some people hate it when i ruin what are supposed to be "surprises"
[vacation]: to the beach august1 through august8
[time you got wet]: at the pool today
[meal]: quesadilla at the pool! (pronounced ques-a-dilla...not the spanish way. hahaha yeah brian)
[laugh]: uhhm...actually have i laughed today? maybe not! *gasp* i think it was last night on the phone with alex
[tear]: sophie bit me today--on accident when i tried to get her ball and she didn't know--but yeah it brought tears to my eyes...but i didn't actually cry
[phone conversation]: with alex last night
[im conversation]: at the moment talking with adam
[disagreement]: my parents tried to make me get up at 9.00, but i slept til 12.30...*shame* but i needed to!
[hug]: alex--friday
[kiss]: alex--friday
[song]: evaporated--ben folds/she's so high--tal bachman/pretty girl--sugarcult
[place you went]: to the pool with my parents and jenny (who is jensen...btw)
[place you went with friends]: to the library then to the bulls game with alex and then max, travis for a bit and thomas

::currently::
[hair]: twisted back, so it'll be curly tomorrow
[clothes]: jean mini and flowered cami
[annoyance]: trying not to procrastinate on homework
[satisfaction]: my soccer team is still going to be good this season!
[worry]: highschool, meaning all the stuff i listed above (workload, adam alex sally me deal thingy going on--haha--and chris and stuff)
[anticipation]: wednesday afternoon and then next weekend

::friends::
[best]: sally belle marie is my lucky crunchy star! hahaha...and then guys are shea scott adam walker
[most recently acquired]: shannon, phil, "poojie", lea, isabella (well with her, re-acquired haha from elementary school), david/minion/slave, max, travis, thomas
[most consistent]: scott has never ever ever gotten mad at me. my big brother!
[most inconsistent]: *muffled voice* yeah i actually do have an answer for that. but don't worry, it's probably not you if you're reading this.
[most...interesting]: betty or chris...power to 'em
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: alex
[most respected]: uhhm i respect all of my friends, definitely. but probably adam, sally, and walker in particular.
[who could you not live without?]: uhhm...i know who i'd pick if i had to pick one person in the entire world but i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. and anyway, i probably wouldn't be able to live without any of you...

[mood]: delerious disbelief
[music]: old time memory--josh kelly

well, let's see.
for some reason the whole blog- / xanga- scene is sort of making me nonplussed these days. same with school, but it was okay today. but yeah, it just seems sort of pointless for me to write all this stuff that if you're my close enough friend, you know, and if you're not close enough to know it either doesn't make sense or it sounds like ranting or you couldn't care less. eh ah whatever.
well, anyway, as i was saying, let's see.
yesterday was...well, sort of uneventful. i did homework. in the middle of which alex called me and we talked for forty five minutes, then i called around some more, and then i got back to homework. i was in a very artistic mood yesterday and so i did a lot of sketching and feel in love with my art class. i love it so much, all the sudden i can just draw and as cliche as this may sound, it's like everything else just sort of drops away...but enough silliness. i'm about to die in french, it's awful. they couldn't say the alphabet. oh wait, neither could the teacher! *sigh* ugh oh well.
so hmm today i rode the bus to cameron village with alex and met his friends max (knew before now) and travis (didn't know but he's cool). we went to the re-located library which was actually pretty fun because we were so silly. we had some major laughter-control problems. but oh well! =). alex and i walked to harris teeter for some of that really cool canadian water and it was pitiful cause we couldn't find it. "it's like we're an old married couple going shopping together" hahaha alex is so silly. then we went back and attempted some homework. it was so cool, cause it was like on the top tier of the three-level parking lot and when we finished homework alex and i wandered around talking up there and "pretty" is definitely not the word i would use, but i suppose "cool" will suffice. it was actually sort of pitiful that raleigh is so short, cause we felt like we were on top of the city. and we thought about getting on the roof but didn't, because getting arrested is no fun. and then we went in a lot of dead ends trying to get back. and then lost change in "copiers" and yeah. and yeah it was fun =). i'm going back tomorrow! and probably every wednesday, if i start piano again on tuesdays. yeah it's sort of pitiful once it gets to like sixth period, that's what keeps me going...oh well.
so actual school today was better cause i actually saw people between classes! like i saw alex three times and we actually had time to talk and same with sally, except only two times, and scott once or twice, and ashley and shelly and...yeah. and i actually have a pretty big group i eat lunch with, even if i'm trying to get out of it (the lunch, not the group haha). and i got called to student services and i talked my way out of a course denial! so i've been referred to the vice-principal to run my lunch-change-in-disguise by him. oooh, i hope it works!
so hmm what else. mr. kifner pisses me off beyond belief. he never calls on me and the kids in my class don't know what they're saying a lot of the time, they're like major anarchists that remind me of shea, except without the research. that's why it's fine with shea, cause he knows what he's talking about. but yeah i just tune out anyway, cause we already learned all of it. oh well. it makes me miss mrs. brooks a lot.
tonight was typical, watched the olympics, ate dinner, got a call from alex, got several from shea, tried scott and sally and shea and...well yeah whatever.
oh, on friday i'm going to see a durham bulls game! ...well, hopefully. there's so much stuff we need to do, like more movies to see and a durham bulls game and ice skating and adventure landing/fun werks and carolina hurricanes games...and well yeah you get the picture. saturday i have a scrimmage which pisses me off cause we have one on thursday, too, and so now i can't go to the library thursday or to hang out with sally and adam on saturday, unless we do something at night. we'll see.
well, i really need to take a shower before adam calls. night night.

[mood]: anticipation!
[music]: she will be loved--maroon five

today was the last day of summer. that says a lot.
thanks so much to everyone who made this summer the best yet, in every little way. you guys mean the world to me. i love you.
well, let's see. today i went to lunch with adam, sally, and mrs. brooks!!! it was the first time i'd seen adam in like...a week haha whatever, but the first time to see sally in over a month and mrs. brooks in two months! we went to vic's in city market and then stopped for ice cream at tony's. it was yummy! and of course it was accompianied by great conversation. damn, i'm gonna miss having her for a teacher sooo much! but ligon is soo fucked up this year. half the teachers are gone and replaced, there's no teams, there's no organization, everyone hates it, there's like no real homerooms, and mrs. k leaves in january to have a baby and ms. relyea takes over eighth grade...AHHH! haha times like these i'm glad i'm gone. well yeah that was really fun(ny). i'm gonna miss adam so much though! and shea...oh goodness i don't even want to think about it. no no no no no!
so yeah today i got a haircut. i hate it. ok, well not that strongly. but like...he took off three inches and to me it seems a lot shorter but everyone else says they can't notice a difference. so i suppose it's all good. i just hope it grows back FAST!
my first soccer practice was tonight. i had a blast. surprising, isn't it? we have...five? i think new people. or maybe it's six. but anyway, it's all good. i had fun. moving on...
tomorrow is the first day of school. and that is saying a lot in one phrase. i'm worried about my schedule, but at least i know my homeroom and i can figure it out.
i guess i need to shower and neaten up and get all ready for tomorrow...
oh my goodness but i don't want it to be the end of summer...i want to stay up late forever and ever and ever...never go to school...just live in this glorious summer...thank you again...