[mood]: well my heartstrings are being tugged on a little bit, but excellent.
[music]: george winston--autumn (the entire album, ahh so good.)

so.
i'm fifteen.
happy birthday anne and april, too!
i feel old...-ish.
actually i feel ageless, i feel both so young and so old and they just cancel each other out. what does age have to do with anything, anyway? you can get wiser or more naive as you grow, and you can become more youthful the older you get. it's a weird conundrum, age is.

let's see.
yesterday i stormed north hills with my mom and that's about all you need to know.
got so much stuff for my birthday, baah.
i don't know why i just made a sheep noise, ANYWAY.

today, woke up at the grand hour of 7.45 to go spend the first half of my birthday at driver's ed.
WHICH TURNED OUT TO BE FUN, whoa my gosh i know but at times i found myself laughing so hard, we made the best of it we could.
we had this foriegn guy as a sub from the lady that was there last week and he was even cooler than she was. we didn't watch as many videos but we talked him into giving us two thirty minute breaks and an hour lunch. and he let us out thirty minutes early, yess.
during first break, threw boxes at each other and fought over the wheely chair.
lunch, they stole some amp equipment and we fused the stero subwoofer and speakers to griffin's ipod and then played football in the parking lot and then starting rolling tires around and pole vaulting WHO KNOWS those boys are crazy. so mostly it was anne griffin spencer kira and...i don't know those other three guys' names. and then i fell asleep, it was nice.

got back to the house then left to meet SHEEHAN at the north carolina museum of art, haven't been there since like sixth grade i don't think.
it closed earlier than we thought so we made transportation arrangements, then were set free.
walked all around outside, there are these huge fields and all these sculptures and different forms of art and it was a really pretty/windy day and i just always have so much fun with shea.
pictures are here.
hahaha BOO. (that video looks like something out of a horror movie. it's from the whistling poles at the museum, but i don't think you can hear anything but the wind, and the screaming of course.)
OH SCHNAP. (that hurt like mess, i don't think you can really tell exactly what happened. but in reality, it's hilarious and it didn't hurt so much that i forbid you from laughing. so laugh, laugh away.)

yeah so then we went back to shea's and took more pictures and trampolined like always, WHAT ELSE?!! and read that orange notebook of comics and stuff we had from last year, awww it made me miss going to school with him so much. i love you sheehan thomas moore!

got home and had my big birthday dinner, ahhh so good. presents presents all around, i'm excited i got lots of great music (waiting on walker for more, heh heh) and clothes aaand that's pretty much about it, besides money. but my party's not til next weekend anyway.

then went with kate to the enloe vs. some wake forest hockey game, YESS we won 10-1 it was awesome. saw anne and carey there, i hadn't seen carey since she left the team like two years ago? or maybe it was just two seasons ago, but three seasons ago would be two years cause of the high school schedule. but ANYWAY. hahaha had fun talking with them and then of course kate and andrew.
especially since kate burned me this awesome CD and everything and gosh i'm just going to miss her so much next year when she goes away to college. like all get out. we have so much fun together, dancing in the car with the windows down blasting hot hot heat. (the band, not the ac. duh.) and i'm so lucky she can take me to school and so lucky that we get along so well and she's like an instant best friend! yay! but it's going to be so lonely around the house once she's gone. and i'm going to miss this year's class of seniors, heck yes '05, because i love them to death and they're all so sweet to me. having a big sister rocks.
well now that we're done with that sentimental moment...

on to another!
i was thinking how perfect this weekend would have been to have walker. he could have come up and stayed with shea while i was at driver's ed and then met at the museum. like, the cloud room and everything? shea was probably about to hit me if i said his name once more. and then tonight the hockey game was so much fun and i know he loves it. and so right now we'd just be sitting on the floor talking when necessary and just listening to music when it wasn't, and just soaking up each other's company.
i don't know it's hard to believe it's only been one month since i saw him.
and it's only been two months for us this time around, but that doesn't really matter i mean that makes something like ten months total so whatever.
but still.

glad for no school tomorrow, have a couple homework things to knock out. i'm sleeping late, though.

overall i had a great birthday. thanks so much to everybody--for existing, i love you.
Kuntal: happy birthday
Morgan: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE!!!
Shea: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Cam: happy birthday charlotte!!!
Michelle: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!
Adam 2: happy birthday!
bah yeah whatever you get the point i don't feel like going through stuff to get all those.