[mood]: wow.
[music]: ben folds, ben harper, b-52's, i'll back you up--dmb, one tree hill--u2, carry the zero--built to spill
[countdown]: four days. all half days for exams.

i can't believe it, that today was the last day of classes.
it was a really great day.
it started out wonderful, too.
and no, i don't mean when kate and i both slept through our alarms and woke up at 7.00.
i mean, it started, at midnight, wonderfully.

i'm going to try to get pictures from everyone, namely shannon & yera.

first: sat on the bleachers and freaked out about kifner and studied with anne, willy, kuntal, tracy, and hubert. what's ridiculous? the fact that we have to take exams in there...on the bleachers...tomorrow. alright i'm over it now. but i'll miss having a class with willy, and that was my one class with anne, too.

second: BAAAAH. my biology nerdologists for LIFE. this is class is one of the only reasons i'm truly heartbroken about the year ending. okay well so i'm not...but next year i'll hate not having it and i'll be heartbroken THEN. shannon, lea, betty, david, and jeff, we had such a great time. we took tons of pictures, as always, and then at the end sat around and reminsced about all the things we've done in that class. like the huge group labs we did at the beginning of the year and we all go to know each other. and me gossiping about a billion and one guys, and then...oh man it's just tough in a place like enloe. cause it's highly unlikely that i'll have a class with them next year, much less BOTH lea and shannon again (the core nerdologists, heck yes.) so that's just a bad feeling...we'll never be able to sit around and just talk again. it was so much fun, i loved this class so much, plus the teacher was AWESOME.

third: baahs; jgbsg. i only ever have to deal with kifner again on monday, for field testing. you can miss up to 13 on the exam and still have an A, i had a 100 on monday and i missed 9 yesterday and so far i'm only wondering about 1 on the part we took today...so hopefully i have an A. that would make this year perfect, honestly. but anyway, today's was easy.

fourth: AWWW i'm going to miss this class, too, despite my strong dispite for the molesting piece of matter that cause itself our english teacher. mulhern, michael, shannon, kuntal, richards and i all had fun watching jane eyre today, you know it! okay so all we did was make fun of it. and pass notes. and take pictures, and more pictures. i love those guys so much...they're some of the best new friends i've made this year.

fifth: we had MORE CAKE in french today...then did just about nothing. okay so fine i'll miss this class a ton, too. sally, rebecca, helen, daniel, kermit, james, other sally, sarah jane, mike, ahh it was a big french family. we had so much fun gossiping and telling all of our woes and funny stories in front of the entire class, it was like a sounding board for everybody. and i did so much to get that class, with that teacher and sally. aww.

sixth: so today really was THE LAST time i'll ever go to that lunch. i would cry, really, but my summer's staring me in the face and it's just too good to do that. i did so much to switch and get this lunch, too. i was so happy it let me get to know jake and michael better. and of course, michelle, danny, scott, ashley, kohler, andrew, and i might as well say alex because he practically sat at my table. but i won't ever get to be smuggled off by kate again. and i won't wander into wood's room again and see shannon, thpenther does NOThavecock, cameron, david, rebecca, and yeah whoever else. and then sally's booth, with julian and...wow yeah that was always interesting.

seventh: AWW the other reason that high school will never be the same after this year. art class meant so much to me, y'all became some of my best friends. i had so much fun in there with you guys, through some of THE WORST days of my life and of course some of the best. you always made me leave with a smile and happy, even if i came in about to cry. cam, yera, morgan, emily, anna, and camille, y'all were so patient to listen to me all those times and of course we ROCKED at the points games and at the end of the year there we finally just got so frustrated and snapped and paid puff-bucket, eloise, and paris back. ahhh yes. i'll miss all the crazy stories so much and i'm so glad i got to know y'all through that class, and again it's sad because it's unlikely we'll all have stuff together again next year. i love you all so much!

eighth: okay so mr. noland = my hero and i'm so sad i won't get him again until junior year. but the second semester of math was a blast, with BABY kuntal and his rolly chairs, playing cards with the huge asian contigent, and beating them might i add. except for today but whatever shut up. you always made me so utterly aware of my whiteness, why thank you. i'll miss the games of slaps and trying to make trash can baskets and copying problems wrong. okay so maybe not so much the last one.

then, i saw all the seniors.
like, all of kate's friends and the "fan club" that came to all of our soccer games and these people i've always known and grown up with. and they all said bye to me and it's ridiculously heartbreaking because 90%+ of them i'll never see again in my life. (if they're exempt from exams.) i don't know how i'd deal with leaving--going from ligon to enloe wasn't that big of a change. their life is going to change drastically, they'll spend the majority of their life doing something completely different from what they've been doing so far. and the scary thing is, that's a constant reminder that in three years that'll be US. there's no stopping it. we'll all split up and go to different colleges. oh goodness. teary eyed.

AHHH everyone i'm so sad.
but, not.
beacuse this summer is going to be the best thing ever, alex's party seeing mrs. brooks shea's party art table get together ted leo (with...? i need to figure that out) and at some point i have to watch k to the untal beat down mu mu at basketball with emcee and danny, then walker's coming here and hanging with shea for a day then to the beach with us for a week then back here and more hanging with shea then a couple weeks til he moves back then...living in cary for the rest of the summer : )

last night was the spring sports banquet and yeah it was sad.
i'm going to miss playing on a team with kate so much.
but i won MIP for varsity soccer so that was pretty nifty.
went out to dinner afterwards at mellow mushroom and yeah we talked about kate leaving for college and GOOD GRIEF this is weird.
i'm not supposed to be this old.
i'm not supposed to be through with a year of highschool, it's already summer again, this is my favorite time of year by far, time always weirds me out this way.
it's the time of year where i stay up late and wake up early because there's no moment when i don't want to be alive. i want to drink as much of it in as often as i can because it's just that amazing, who wants to be asleep when you could be talking or thinking or writing or loving or knowing or just being, in a wonderful place like this.

much love to everybody.
i'll update again tomorrow, probably.
HOPEFULLY people upload their pictures soon.
i'm getting a new digital camera in time for the beach (enter moment of utter hypervenilation and excitement) but not in time for the last day of school, duh.
now only exams are left and that's weird.
only one time left in each of my classes.
oh man.
it's weird...i remember last year ending, it was horrendous.
the two weeks after the end of ligon were the saddest weeks of my life. not kidding.
and now i'm so sad that this is ending because it was an amazing freshman year. i mean honestly, people should wish hope and pray for a year as amazing as the one i had.
thanks to all the people who made it so close to perfect.
i'm proud of all of us for making it through the way we did.
GAAHHH now summer get here : )