[mood]: relaxed, content
[music]: eva cassidy, jack johnson, coldplay, wallflowers, robert randolph and the family band, ben folds

i sort of didn't want to cover up the last entry because to me it captivated a moment that was here. but it's passed now.
i'm thinking this might be my last entry in this blog, i update so infrequently these days that my xanga should be able to handle everything i have to say. even if my entries are longer than the emancipation proclamation, oh well they'll survive.

i've been having a wonderful time, despite the ever-present bite of aching for him and the beach.

so what's happened.
my parents went to ashville so lisa and michael were around a lot of the time.
thursday night i went to their house in creedmoor and had a cookout with them and ben and chelley. that was fun, ben's hilarious and dinner was delicious and it was a good time all around.
friday was really busy, woke up and went to the pool and then went straight from there to lunch with ben michael chelley and lisa and then went straight from there to shea's house!
we made chocolate milkshakes and he played songs on his guitar while i sang, sweet. we watched the first part of reefer madness which was just depressing. well it was funny. but some funny stuff is depressing at the same time, you know? so yeah good floor-sitting laughs were had by all. the best was the strawberry that got stuck in his glass, that was priceless and i will never forget it. "it bopped me on the nose!!" hahahaha i love you sheehan.
then they gave me a ride home and i got ready to hit the town, har har.
cept really, we did.
went to evoo first for drinks and appetizers, we got free food because michael's brother bill was the chef. so yeah it was me lisa ben michael chelly matt zach melissa jensen and kate. then we went on to 518 for real dinner, sat at the bar for a while (i got a shirley temple, heck yes) and then sat down. except i didn't really want to eat so we ordered a bunch of food then just boxed it up. matt got drunk and was hilarious, i'm sorry to admit. well the story about proposing was classic, as was "dark, warm, moist..." oh goodness. and then there was that chocolate cake fiaso from the table next door to us...michael bet me $5 to go and get it and jensen was like i'll do it for $10 and she got up and took it. we gave it back though. whoo boy.
then yesterday was pretty low key.
hung out with lisa the whole day, took sophie on a walk, made cookies, went to the store, made dinner, watched ocean's twelve with her and michael.
then today was a good day, at 1.30 (or well i was late, whoops) met up with shannon at north hills! it was so good to see her, we had a blast. we ate lunch at moe's and split nachos and were messy eaters and told stories (hahaha) and then realized we were screwed cause we had no clue what time it was. went in a lot of stores and then saw her friend paul working at starbucks. oh, the joy of lifeguarding connections. and he told us what time it was, sweet. but we lost track again while we spent forever and a half in target, trying on a bunch of stuff but in the end only getting superman underwear, unless you count the candy we smuggled in, hahahahah good times good times. we ended up being ten minutes late to batman but it was all good, the previews were still going on as promised to us by paul. well, oh my goodness, it was so good. i liked the spiderman movies okay, but this was so much better. it was pretty dark the whole time which i actually liked a lot better than the happy go lucky crap. it was edge-of-your-seat excitement and they didn't go too crazy with the computer imaging, it was just the right amount and pretty well done in my humble opinion. and yes, it screamed SEQUEL at the end, haha.
came home and found out that sophie has conjunctivitus, awww.
my parents are home, at least!

these are the songs that i currently have on repeat, basically:
green eyes--coldplay
i'll back you up--dmb
fields of gold--eva cassidy
late--ben folds
no other way--jack johnson
another one in the dark--the wallflowers
smile--robert randolph and the family band

i discovered there is one song that will make me cry no matter what: fields of gold, the version by eva cassidy off of live at blues alley.
i miss you,
where are you?
no matter, walks on the beach can't be replaced by late night online talks.